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/ Again a mistake happened at the library that cost me money! I now have $109. I now have $69 (fruit at "Food 4 Less" apple fruit sauce 9 at 268, "Best Yet" pear 12 at 128). I've been running in and out of the markets that I go to. And today, as I was running away from "K-Mart", there were 3 negros there out side, I guess they were trying to sell something. The one woman who was standing outside, she saw me run in. Then a bit later, she saw me run out and asked me if I wanted to buy some candy. Then as I was running away, the 2 others were walking towards me and the man asked me; "Are you in a rush?". I said yes. Then he said; "Can I run with you?". / Some of mother's watermelon: The watermelon that the "Safeway" man had picked out for me as "good", turned out to be the worst watermelon that I have ever had! The last third one was so bad that the dog did not want any when I gave her the whole slices! {This is why I don't like buying fresh fruit; I never know if it's edible or not. And then it could have poison in it.} Worked 1.0.
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Something happened in right side of mouth, I think the lower side. It was one of my last chews. When my teeth came together, something snapped. There was no pain, but a strange uncomfortable sensation went through my body. What was it? Was it one of my teeth snapping apart inside? Was it my jaw? It felt like it was one tooth. I know that there has been some sort of weakness in one of my teeth on the right side for a long time when I bite down. But if it was only a tooth, I think that I would be having some sort of pain and I don't think that I would have had that weird sensation in my body. I cannot feel any cracks in a tooth. Alay is going in and out of the main cubby hole in the middle room, in and out, in and out. It's a new thing for her! It was very very difficult for me to get to sleep. / I now have $55 "Kleenex" tissue "Target" at 89 x 15. I gave about half of it to mother. I now have $41 (gas bill). I got to the house so late that it was really too late to get any work done! But mother was not upset, she liked my pretty purple stripped shirt. (I could not find my shirts!) But later I went upstairs and took Alay with me and got my typewriter going (someone took my lamp for the typewriter!!) and cleared out enough, just barely, and I put in my letter to Rick Berman! Worked 0.0.
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So I got home extra late tonight. But I got to thinking; that if I am going to be up very late, then why not stay and do the letter. I got as far as putting the whole letter in (it is very very short, only about half a page) and typing it out! / When I was mowing the front lawn today the exhaust and the dust and the bits of grass seemed really bad, and I felt like I deserved an award for getting it done. Later I went upstairs again with Alay and got my letter typed out and in the mail! A great achievement for me to get the letter not only done (when I haven't used the typewriter in years) but also in a very short time. {Never heard from him.} Most of the time I wonder why I feel bad. But I see that I hardly ate anything today or tonight, so con what I ate, I'm surprised that I do as well as I do. But recently, mostly at night, I have been getting extremely thirsty, needing to drink water nearly constantly with something bothering my throat. I put Alay down on the slab, and I left her there for awhile, and the cute kitten was trying to play with her a bit like Zila did at first! Alay got to liking it on the slab! She is noticeably bigger than the other kittens. They seem small compared to Alay. {Because I was taking care of Alay, and I guess no one was taking care of the other kittens. Why didn't I notice?} Alay seems to love me more tonight after I brought her in. Worked 3.5.
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I now have $33 (lettuce, carrot roots, and "TV Guide" - "First details... new Trek series" "Fry's") / When I got to the house, I found that Kevin had taken the lamp some time ago (he was there). And when I got to the house, I brought Alay in and then phoned about the butterfly gardens, but no one answered. So I did not go. I wanted to go, but I could get no information about it. {-Story of my life.} I mowed the rear lawn and had Alay out in the cage while I was mowing (first time). I got Laken's dumpster (which was full) and filled all 3 dumpsters up with grass! There was a lot of grass. I think a small dark spider got me on my left thumb when I was picking up Alay by the rear kitchen door inside the house. Worked 3.0.
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Zila stayed out the whole time tonight and I had Alay on the slab again. What's wrong with me? I can't hardly do anything. My digestion has changed. What's going on? And when I chew on something hard on the left, the right jaw area hurts. What's going on there? / Belly swelling large. What's wrong with me? Doing very poorly. Can't lay down, must stay up. Soreness in belly. difficult to move around. What's wrong with me? Is it something that I did? {I think it's the chocolate. Chocolate poisoning. But it has taken me many years on my own to figure it out.} There have also been pains in lest breast. Laid on left flank for a little while, then laid on right. Feeling much better now. Worked 2.0.
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Not doing well. {-For a bunch of hours.} / Not as bad as last night, but this problem is keeping me up very very late. This is getting very bad, I can't get to the office, I can't pay my electric bill, and I can't hardly get to work and I can't do a lot of other things. Is it the pizza? Is it bad pizza? {It's the chocolate! Why was I such a dummy for such a long time? And why did no one help me with the problem? Because my family are idiots, and they did not care what problems I had/have.} I've decided not to eat any more for awhile and see what happens. I now strongly suspect that the pizza is bad pizza. Probably the beef on it. If so, then the "Pizza Hut" pizza has been wrecking havoc with my life. But if it's the chocolate, then why does it take so many hours to show up? And how would it hang on so long after I have eaten it? {This was and is the perplexing part.} I have stopped eating nearly everything. I am 45 as of now--- {--This minute.} I came in from working, and mother said; "Happy birthday." And I said; "You can do better than that." Then she said; "I can?" Then she said; "Happy birthday!" Then I told her that she could wish me a happy birthminute. So she said "Happy birthminute." Alay did not start whining tonight after I walked away from her and stayed away for a few minutes when she was outside out of the cage on the horse barn sidewalk! I now have $133 (Birthday gift from mother!) Worked 0.5.
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I have some soreness and pains tonight in my belly, but I am much better than I was. I am tired again tonight. {Without the chocolate.} Is it the pizza or the chocolate? Whichever it is, the problem should be disappearing. I don't know what else it could be. / {Going to the chocolate again.} slept again! - Tired and very sleepy. / Now I don't know what to think about the "Pizza Hut" pizza (or the chocolate either). This is weird: I come to the house today to find that mother has done battle against the ants in her house, and only about an hour prior I got there (It seems like the ants could have waited, or mother, but mother is not one to wait!). And get this; the ants were on and around the refrigerator that I put my pizza in! Furthermore, mother said that it has not been working recently! But I did not notice any problem with the refrigerator. But if there was a problem, then that could have allowed my pizza to spoil enough that it could have made me sick. So if it was bad pizza, it might not be any fault of "Pizza Hut"! But was it the pizza? For my problems are not gone yet! {And they will never be!} Could it be the chocolate? What is my problem? I wish I knew. I have been doing fairly well so far with what I have been eating, {Or so I thought.} but I would like to start eating again. But I do have a few pains and some nasty burping. My life is often miserable, but why should it be this miserable? Worked 2.0.
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I now have $116 (gasoline). Belly getting larger. What's wrong with me? Can't get to sleep, fidgety. (I'm trying to design the ultimate starship in my mind.) / Very tired. Can't do anything. Stomach is upset and large belly. I went to the library today to find that one of my stocks has gone up (Hi Tech). It is now at 281% I have not been bothered on my way home for awhile, but I have had a few scares. But tonight, I was going along in the middle lane on 19 Avenue going north not far south of Cactus, when 2 small white cars came along at fairly high speed, one in the left lane and one in the right lane. It was like they were racing each other -- but I was in the middle! When they passed, there was nothing I could think to do except cringe! When the right lane car was at my right rear corner, one of the drunkards threw or dropped a beer bottle out the window. At first, I thoght it was some ice that someone had thrown. They shortly turned into a parking lot up ahead of me. After awhile, I turned off and looked at my car, I did not see any damage. Then I returned and looked, and I saw some glass on the street (my tires ran over a bit of it). Worked 1.5.
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After I got home and had the cats out, the tiger striped kitten got too close for Alay, and she wacked her paw at her and spat! (And Alay fell over.) {Some fighter she would have made!} / I now have $114 (cantaloupe "Safeway". 3 melons for only $2! at c19 per pound.) I now have $109 (that wasn't enough; more cantaloupe from the third "Safeway". All together: 10 melons.) Tonight, mother again told me that she wanted me to pull all my whiskers out -- by hand!!! Worked 2.0.
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I now have $107 (licorice candy (new) "American" "Red Vines" "Licorice Twist" "Fry's"). Zila running through the trailer growling again (with Puddypie chasing a bit)./ Zila is doing it again! / Very very slow -- difficult to move. {-For many hours.} I'm holding my belly -- pushing in with my hand, nearly all the way to the house in my car: At the top center of my belly having some pains. Worked 1.5.
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When I started letting the cats out after I got home tonight, Zila came out on her own (she has learned to push the door open). So then I stopped unloading my stuff and went and got her and put her inside (this is not the first time that this has happened). {Why didn't I let her stay out?} But then a little bit later the same thing happened! Then when I was bringing everything in later, I had put Zila in, and I was working in getting Puddypie, when Zila came out again! I am doing much much better tonight than last night! It has taken me a very long time to recover from --- from what? I hope my stocks go up, and I hope I get rich. {Dream on!} I hear an owl outside! And it sounds like a fair sized one. Name for a band; "Do Not Add Water". / This would have been the perfect situation for some chocolate to help get me going today. Well, I went to the library and had a talk with the woman in charge while I was waiting for a computer. Then I went into "Hoovers" then "Schwab" and saw what happened with my stock: It opened higher than my sell price!! Friday it was at 13.36, Saturday I put in my sell at 14 25, then today it started at 14.44, and that's what they sold at, then sometime later it went as high as 15.06, then ended at 14.99. My sell was 304%. I had a long talk with a "Schwab" guy again tonight about the problems with "Schwab" and my complaints. Those stupid "Schwab" people, they sold my stock first thing in the morning as if my sell was a "market order". Any idiot except a blind man could see that that stock was going up. I guess that I've got to do all the thinking for their $30 a whack commissions. And I looked at my account performance page, and only because it is now sold, the information was blank, it was gone! So I did not get it printed out, what's the point? Even the "cash" at the bottom is a lie, because of the settlement date. I'm not entirely happy with the sell at this point, I must see what happens with the stock. If it goes much higher, I will be unhappy. I think that it will very soon start going down, or at least seem that it can't go any higher. If it goes down soon, then I will be happy that I made the best choice. But I am becoming increasingly unhappy with the stupid people at "Schwab", they never listen to me. It's not because I'm not smart, It's because I am a little fish. When I'm rich {Yea, like that's going to happen.} I bet they will be listening to me. But I won't necessarily be any smarter then than I am now. I thought of a new category name tonight for some stocks: "Meanders". Worked 2.5.
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I now have $85 (at "Fry's" 8 "tortillas", one "lettuce", more "carrot", and more licorice candy. It came to $22.22!) / No bad burping after the "Chef Boyardee" tonight! {-"Homestyle" "Rigatoni"} Zila was playing with the "Kleenex" box, she got caught in it, then she started jumping to get out of it, and went bouncing around the room! / I think what happened is that when I was walking by, Alay jumped out from under my bike. My foot hit her, but she seems to be okay. / I'm getting slightly dizzy. / I'm getting very dizzy. Worked 1.0
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When I had the cats out tonight, two young guys came walking by (again). ALL the cats scattered, including Alay and Puddypie! Zila's leash pulled on puddypie's leash, and Puddypie's leash pulled on a chair and tipped it over. / Feeling strange with rumblings in my belly. What's wrong with me now? I need to go to "Trader Joe's". I need to get to sleep! I need to get to bed earlier. I need to get my life straightened out. I hope I'm going to be okay. I hope I make a lot of money in the stock market. I wish I could get to sleep. / I wish I could do better. / I did errands today, I figured I had to. I can't keep going and going this way, and I have not been able to get going early enough. I went to the library to check on Hi Tech, it has dropped. I also looked at Zila and Orbital. The first one, it seems like something is going on and the public can't decide if they want it or not. The second, it has dropped! Then coming away from the library, I saw that crazy man who was living in the park and he came to attack me one night, and he was in that same ugly brown Chevy truck! Then I went looking for that drain opener that I last bought ("American Fare"). I thought that I had got it at "Target" or "Walmart", but I found it at "K Mart", but the price was too high for me. Then I went to "Walmart" and found some very low cost drain opener and bought it! I now have $79. Getting this stuff was long over due. Then I came home and got Alay. Then I went to "Trader Joe's". I now have $5! Mostly granola, so I should do better now. Long overdue! And some nuts and some "Clif" bars. I noticed something: On the granola packages the price sticker was off on the outskirts of the label! I asked about it and the man said yes, he had taken my suggestion to get the price stickers off the labels! This is rare that a business listens to me. I also gave them a proposal: That if a customer found a product that was out of date, then it would be given for free. She did not like the idea, but she let me have 4 granolas for free. Then I went to the house (getting there very very late) to find an article on the front page of the business section about Zila! (About their "miracle" product.) I had a bit of dizziness at one point tonight, but nothing like last night. Worked 0.0.
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Belly getting large, is there something wrong with my apple fruit sauce? I have been trying to get away from it, but what do I replace it with? When I turned on the stove flame, I saw a tiny beetle walking on the top of the stove, and I thought, how am I going to get rid of it, it might get into my food? Then it turned, and went walking toward the flame. Then I thought; as soon as it feels the heat, it will get out of there! But then it flew, and poof! It was gone in a flash of light! Much heaviness and soreness in belly. What is going on now?? / Last night I discovered small chunks taken out of the outer edge of the Omni's right front tire! I could see the steel belt in some places! I thought about what I should do to correct this problem. So today, I looked at my tires and thought about it some more. Then I think I saw what to do, so I switched front tires. I hope that will solve the problem for now and for awhile. I now have $80 (paid). I worked up stairs again tonight, but hardly got anything done -- the place is a mess. So I only got a tiny thing here and there done in several hours of "working". I have been surprised that about all Alay has been wanting to do up there is lay under my chair. And it's cold under there! But she only wants to sleep. That whole place up there and she wants to sleep! Worked 1.0.
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On the way home tonight, I kept hearing a paper sound, it was Alay hitting the paper bag inside the cage with her paw as she was trying to catch the light from the street lights as it passed over her! / Strange sensations and pains in belly. What is wrong with me? It's been days since any chocolate, so how could it be that? What could it be? / I now have $79 (library). There was hardly anyone there! When I got there I thought they might be closed. I got computer number 13, there was a bit more room on this one for my tiny pieces of paper. Also, I lost my pen from my pocket, it was gone, so I used a pencil. I found it later in the Omni. The only good things of what I saw was that Orbital has gone down and is staying down for the count. Hi Tech is staying up for now but it is below what I sold it at. Bioject seems to be starting up again. Mother has begun to gripe at me the last several days about me working on the wood pile. And then when I got to the house today and came out to work on it some more, she was out there. And she said to me that I had done a marvelous job on the wood pile! {She tends to be this way, on and off, like a faulty switch.} And I said, what did you say? Let me hear that again. So she said it again. Alay played a bit on the lawn while I was working on the wood pile! (But it was partly dirt, not all grass like out in the middle of the lawn.) Worked 1.5.
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I now have $74 ("Fry's" more carrot roots and the "TV Guide": "There's Something About Hairy"). After I walked into "Fry's", I started looking at the "TV Guides", and then a woman walked by and went out. She seemed very attractive from the second I saw her. She had blond hair. She looked over towards me after I looked over at her. Then she was gone. She might live around here, but I will probably never see her again. I wish I could have a woman like that! {-NEVER HAPPEN!} I wonder what she thought about me. {Probably nothing} I was surprised when I saw her because I usually don't see very attractive women late at night (or any other time). I wonder what she was doing there, I did not see anything in her hands and she did not have a cart. I wish I could get a woman like that! If I had fame or fortune I probably could. But I am a pathetic nobody, a little fish with next to nothing, and I am not handsome to most women, very few women want me. Many women won't look at me! Most of the ones that do, act like they want to stay away from me. Only one kitten came tonight, the cute tiger stripe. A loud motorcycle went speeding down the street (17 Avenue), and Zila didn't hardly do anything! / The cooler has been making a rattling noise for some time (I think for years), but for several days now, it has gotten louder. Also there has been a loping sound like maybe the belt was loose. For days I have been wanting to get up there and look at it to see if there was anything wrong that I could do something about or if it was the fan motor wearing out now after several years. So I decided to get up and look at it today. To my surprise I found that the pully wheel adjuster was loose and was starting to unwind off the shaft because the peg was not tight, and yes, because of this the belt was loose and it was the loose pully wheel that was rattling. So with some difficultly, I oiled and tightened up everything and I hope that I did not get the belt too tight. There's no rattling! This is something strange, that after all these years of taking care of my cooler (my cooler was old and very rusty when I moved in to this trailer 17 years ago!), I have only now learned that an evaporative cooler should not rattle! There's a small blister on my thumb from working on it. Worked 0.0.
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For several days and nights the cats seem to be sleeping more and are much less active. Several days ago I ran out of their regular food, could this be why? I'm getting sad thinking about all my cats. {Don't I have only 3? Although, there was Tinker, Tiger, Pounce, and Boonie that are gone.} I wish my life was better. I'll be glad when this year is over!!! So that my stocks can go up. But will I have Alay then? I am surprised that she has lasted this long without dying. Especially with all the falling she does. As for me, I'm just barely hanging on, and hope that I can continue to until the end of the year. About the only good thing with the summer here is that one cannot get too cold. Alay runs like a missile out of control! / Alay clawed my lip again. Alay's poop seems to be normal now with no black coating on the outside. / I got the wood pile(s) mostly done! But then I came in to mother and she started griping to me about, not when, but if I was going to mow the lawn! I went upstairs again with Alay, trying to figure out what to do. I looked through mother's "Hot Wheels" and then it started raining, and it was raining all the way home and raining at home. Worked 2.0.
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I am having some bad burping again. Why do I have these problems? What did I do wrong? And more importantly, when did I do something wrong? It seems like it has been a long time since I have eaten any chocolate {It's been 11 days}, and so I am tempted to think that maybe these problems have nothing to do with the chocolate. I would rather have it be me eating too much chocolate as the problem, than it to be something else. Because if it is something else, then what is it? And if I don't know what it is, then how can I stay away from it? I wish my life was better. I wish my life was better! There are 154 days until the end of the year. That seems like a long time to wait. It's kind of like I am in jail waiting until the day I get out. There should be more to my life. I should be having some fun. The shows that are on television are either lousy or poor. I wish I had some money. I wish my life was better. I wish I could see inside my body to see what was going on. The purpose of this record book was so that it would help me to know what was wrong with me. So that I could correct it and avoid the same thing again. But I don't seem to be able to figure it out on my own. ---- This is the story of my life. --- I don't seem to be able to figure it out on my own. Knowing this years ago lead me to believe that I need someone in my life to help me with things. I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm glad I have Alay. At the end of the year, I'll be 45 and a half! / I need to mow the lawn, but I am low on oil for my mower. So I went to "Target" to buy some at c97. But it was too high -- c119, plus they did not have the one that I wanted. So I went to "Checker" and it was much higher -- c149? So I went to "Autozone" and bought one at c137. I now have $72. I should have bought it at "Target" months ago! Then I went to the house and picked up and then started mowing. I mowed the whole lawn, almost! I did very well on the little that I ate. Most of the time I was slow and some of the time I had difficulty walking and pushing the mower, but I kept going. I worked until midnight! I stopped in the middle to eat the tortillas and apple fruit sauce. Worked 5.5!
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After I had been sitting out awhile after I got home, I looked over and saw the light kitten at the water bowl. It took me awhile longer to notice that something was wrong. "She" was not coming out to get some food. Then I saw "her" sinking "her" head into the water bowl. So I took away the pieces of wood and "she" couldn't hardly move! "She" did not run away like "she" has done every time in the past and "she" did not move. I petted "her" a little while (I forgot to look to see the gender!). "She" must be very very sick. At one point "she" was getting "her" head into the water, and I did not want "her" to drowned, so I moved "her" away a bit. "She" stood up once. I gave "her" a little bit of food, but "she" did not want it. Then later, after I had been in awhile, I started getting worried about the kitten. I thought that "she" might die there tonight. (I had neglected to latch the door) so I went out and looked, and "she" was gone. I had some strange burping. I started smelling something burning when I was coming out from the rear of the trailer. Zila had gotten up on the rear of my bike which is in front of the stove and is where I put some things that I get out of the refrigerator such as the cat food that I had gotten out and poured into the cat's bowl. And Zila was smelling around also. At first I thought; could that be coming in through the walls from the neighbors? As I was walking out to the front, then I thought; is it something going wrong with my cooler? So I walked up to the cooler with my face and smelled, and no, whatever it was, it was not coming from the cooler. Then I thought; it must be coming from the middle of the trailer. Then I turned and saw Zila on the rear or my bike with her rear end up on the stove with her tail going straight out. So I grabbed her off! It was Zila's tail burning! There is a black burned spot on her tail! So I put Zila's nose to the spot on her tail. I hope she learned something. / I now have $38 (more fruit, "Food 4 Less"). I now have $318 (paid). I {had} rushed to "Food 4 Less", then rushed to the house after coming home, but it was too late to get any work done. But I had one show that I could watch ("Witchblade" - another dumb show), and I was going to mend some of my badly needed shirts, but mother was in a bad mood and had a fit. So that put me in a bad mood, so I went home. Worked 0.5.
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I then spent a long time outside with the cats. The kittens came but not the light one. Where is she? Did she die? And I saw the mother cat with another Siamese! They seemed exactly the same, I did not know one from the other except that one ran away. Muscles getting very tight, is it the "Clif" bar? Two "cars" are honking at the same time at the same place! Those stupid mexicans! A few trailers south of me, a small car and a small truck side by side honking! The car took off at high speed. Then the truck went, and as he went around the corner, he threw something out his window, it seemed like a white stick. {The crazy mexicans, they were very much a nuisance to the park.} / I now have $64 (rent). I came home and worked on the cooler again. I loosened the belt a bit but found that the fan rotor is moving side to side and that is what is making the bumpy sound, otherwise my 17 year + cooler would hardly make any noise now. I guess the bearings are wearing out, and there's nothing I can do about that. If I could, the cooler is too old and rusty to put in new bearings -- the rusty metal would probably crumble. And I found that one of the holes on the outside of the pan is starting to leak! This makes me very unhappy. Maybe I can get by with it until the end of the heat. Worked 1.5.
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I am having much burping, but it is not bad burping. No light kitten again tonight. I hope that "she" is not dead. The others came. In the beginning, when I was walking from my car to my door to unlock it, I walked into the cute kitten. She must have been sleeping I think. She did not seem to be hurt. {Why didn't I bring her in as my cat?} I oiled all my car door hinges last night, and now the left rear door will not stay open! {Car is on a slope.} So I put a thin brick under my car so that I can (I hope) stop my right rear tire on it when I park at home. Sometimes Alay shoots across the room (in a straight line!) until she runs into something and crashes. With all the crashes that she does, she never seems to get hurt. Zila and Alay played like crazy tonight. / What is wrong with me? I got up and going very very late, too late to pay my rent. I wish I could eat the chocolate! My digestion is much better now. {Being away from the chocolate poisoning.} I have some burps, but they are not bad burps. My belly does not swell up and get tight. And I don't often have pains in my chest. But I wish I could do much better. It is very hot now, and it's a long time to wait until the end of the year. I'll be glad when August is over! Then late in September it should cool off. I now have $27 ("Food 4 Less", more fruit). I now have $21 (cat food). I now have $5 (pizza). Mother was nasty to me again tonight. She doesn't have the foggiest of what my life has been like. {She never had a clue.} I now have $80 (paid). Worked 0.0.
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I came home and parked my right rear tire on the thin brick nearly exactly on it! The brick is only a bit larger than the tire that is touching it. Only the one cute kitten tonight, and she came very late. It is breezy tonight, and I smelled something dead, I think it is coming from under George's (lot 85) trailer. I think it is probably the light kitten. / I wish I could eat more without fear of my belly swelling up and getting tight with air that cannot get out soon enough. I wish I could do better. I wish mother and I got along much better. I wish I had some money. I wish Alay could begin to walk better. She has such a difficult time of it. I'm sad about one of my cats or the other who has died. But all I can do is to love the cats I have (Puddypie, Zila, Alay) as much as I can. It would mean a lot to me if a very attractive woman came along somehow into my life and wanted to get to know me and to be with me. That has never happened to me. It will probably never happen. {I was correct about that!} Women are not like men. A woman does not want or need a man like a man wants or needs a woman. / Puddypie vomited. I got him into the tray soon enough. I went to the office and paid my rent! Sharri gave me the usual "will do". She said that she has not seen Carla yet! Not seen her yet? What's going on? I'm wondering. Then I went to the library. The good news is that "Hi - Tech" has dropped! As I thought it would. And "Bioject" is continuing to go up. It is now at 476% at 11.17 per share. And I checked into the "Hoovers" ratings for the first time ever --- on "Bioject" (I did not know they had any), and it said that it was a "strong buy"! But after awhile, I started feeling bad and I went straight home. Having some pains in left part of chest. I went to the house and got started on the oleanders! The front hedge. And while I was trimming, I came upon a bird's nest. It was down in the top of the hedge, but now it is on top in the open. It has 3 eggs in it and 2 baby birds that are newly hatched I think. And they cannot make a sound with their mouths. I got to thinking about them later, so I found a box and trimmed above the nest carefully, and I put 2 holes in the box and rigged it up above the nest! The mother bird did not return to the nest. I think I probably saw her chirping and flying around. I hope she returns to the nest and takes care of her babies. I hope they don't die. I did what I could for them, at least they won't be in the sunshine tomorrow. Then later as I was carrying more branches to the pile out by the street, I saw a large snake! I did not come far from stepping on it. It was going into the pile. It was tan with dark diamond patches on the main body and leopard spots on the tail. I think it was more than 3 feet long. It was going north, because a bit later, it came out of the pile and went across the street and onto the lawn. Alay fell off the table again tonight but she landed on the chair. That cat! Worked 3.0.
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I now have $65 (gasoline, the tank was on empty. I went 338 miles! And it filled up to only 11.369 gallons! I probably could have gone another 45 miles!). Bit earlier, Alay clawed my toes and it hurt! It hurt for awhile! And now she has put her claw into my left side! It hurt. / Having pains in one small spot in left side of back. It is very windy. I had to open the door and grab in the clothes pin that I had on the blanket that is hanging over my roof, because it was banging on the trailer wall in the wind. A sting in top edge of shoulder - left. An upset in belly. What's going on? It was a bit windy at the house. I found that the box was partly in place, but despite my best efforts, the baby birds died! The mother bird did not return to the nest. I am trimming the oleanders (front) very severely, because it has been a long long time since they were trimmed properly. I did not do as well today than yesterday. I had Alay out with me but after awhile put her the cage because she was getting too close to the cut branches. / When I was trying to watch the endings of two shows, the electricity went out! So I missed both endings. It stayed off for more than 30 minutes. There was less than 10 minutes to go for both shows. The first show was "Lady Dragon 2" (1993), and the second; "Oldest Autos on the Road". The "first" show was a piece of junk -- I did not see anything of value in it. I don't think I learned one thing from that show. The "second" show; I learned a few things. It rained a tiny bit at the house. Worked 2.0.
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At home; the black kitten came also with the cute one, but no light one. / Alay has dark on her poop again. I woke with a stiff neck, and it took me a long time to get myself up. And then I had stiff shoulders. It did not go well for me so I got going very very late. Loud pounding music at lot 84 today. And there was a white Chrysler car there (and it was there when I got home tonight). I've been putting Alay-in-the-cage on top of my car while I work (and I think she went to sleep tonight). As I was working, carrying branches to the pile, a man with a large dog on a leash came walking by, he only said hi. Then he came by again and he was telling me about the irrigation. Then as he was about to walk away, I said to him; "The stock market is crazy isn't it?" But he only chuckled and said; "Yeah". Then he walked away. For some reason, I felt like saying that to him. He seemed like a smart man, but for one reason or the other, he did not want to talk about the stock market. I've been giving Alay a few bits of my pizza, and she likes it. Worked 1.5.
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When I got home, I parked my car with the tire on the thin brick, I got it first try! (And yes, it does work, my door stays open.) It's not easy to park on the brick. Eric came by two times after I got home. What is he trying to do? I let Zila look around towards the rear part of my trailer to-night for the first time (where she cannot go on the leash that I have for her). I wish I felt better. I cannot do what most other people can do. When I'm laying down doing my printing like this, Alay comes to me, She flips and flops sometimes, but she scoots herself in under my chest and lays there. She loves me! Puddypie has been getting aggressive tonight, chasing Zila. And they have been chasing each other. Zila likes apple fruit sauce! I hear a strange noise behind me, and I turn and look, and it's Zila licking the apple fruit sauce off of the plastic jar cap. I wish I could get to eating the lettuce. I've discovered with the help of Zila, that the cats are out of water! Worked 2.0.
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On my way home a large fire equipment emergency vehicle did not come far from bashing me when it turned out onto 19 Avenue from a parking lot. I was in the middle lane and they turned out and went into the left lane when I was going by. I swerved a bit. Then they shortly went to turn off a Cactus. I don't think that he could not have seen me coming. I now have $57 (tortillas, carrot roots "Fry's"). I have been finding a lot of things on the street (and sidewalks) for years. Countless nails and screws and bolts and nuts. And I find sockets and wrenches. A few weeks ago I found a like new adjustable wrench! Tonight, prior I got to "Fry's", I found a lamp! With some light bulbs in it! And when I was coming away from "Fry's", I found an Allen wrench, shiny and in good condition. Size 1/4. (Although I thought it was black when I saw it on the street. I almost did not go to it because I thought it was probably a piece of molding that fell off a car or truck.) Eventually, I will probably have a complete set of sockets and wrenches. Then when I got home, I parked on the brick again--first time! I wish my life was better. I had to wait such a long time waiting on the stock market. And I have no one to talk to. I hope that the wait will be worth it. It's a long long time until the end of the year. I've got to wait a whole nother week each week only to see if my stocks have done anything. It's one week at a time And a lot of lousy shows! And no chocolate. But I'm glad it's not any worse that it is. I'm glad I have Alay. And I hope that she is with me for a long time and that she gets better so that she can walk. I love her very very much, about as much as I could love anyone. / It is very windy. There's a loud banging on my trailer outside, so I went out to see if I could see what it was. It was raining on me a bit. I did not see for sure what it was, but I laid down one pole (hat stand?). When I got going and came out, nearly all my windows {Omni} were dirty, but not the rear window that I keep the board over. I cleaned them. For awhile, I have been wanting to make special boards for all my Omni windows. {Never did.} To keep the sunshine out of my car, and to keep the windows clean when it rains. But I do not have enough money to buy the wood at "Home Depot". And if I did buy it, the wood will not fit in my car. And if I did get the wood home, I do not have a way to cut it. For the first time today, Alay ventured into the front part of my trailer (no man's land). But when I was ready to go, she had come out but she wanted to go in again. So I grabbed her. "Witchblade" is getting more interesting now that "Sara" is beginning to fight the "White bulls". The lamp I found, 3 out of 4 bulbs are intact and they light! It was very difficult, but I got mother to read the last haft of this record book, only about a month stating from June 29 to today. She read it like she was trying to get through it as rapidly as she could. {She was in idiot. This was my life! And she did not care. Or pay any attention.} She was not enjoying it. Worked 2.0.
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On my way home, I stopped for the red light at 19 Avenue and Thunderbird. I was not up to the line like most people are because my car rolls. Then a small white car comes along in the right lane and stops behind to the right of me instead of stopping along side of me. I was beginning to get suspicious, so when the light went green I moved slow and I looked over. There were at least 2 people and I think I saw a mexican. They went slow and turned right. As he did so he switched off his lights. I think it was a Honda sedan, and it had pop up lights, I saw them go down when he switched off the lights. These people are shady for sure and they were up (or should I say down) to something. They did not want me to see something. Their actions prove that they were doing something wrong. They could have turned right on red, but they stayed behind me so that I would not see something. This irritates me. I feel like I've been used. I hate people like this. {Hideous wrong-doer people.} They went down the street with their lights off. Where's the police? This is a good way to get stopped by the police. {Whatever "wrong" I do, the police gets me! Even when I'm not doing wrong.} All the crooks should be told to do this; "Go down the street at night with your lights off". These people must have been crooks. And they were doing something wrong. But I have no idea what it is. I hate crooks. I parked again tonight on the brick -- first time! This is not easy to do, I must have my car in a certain spot and also have it at the angle that I want it so that it will be against the sunshine to keep it out. / I got up early, but I could not keep myself awake. Maybe I should have gone to the chocolate. A long time later, I got to the house and started working on the oleander front hedge again, but at first I could not find the clippers! Harlan had been there and he used it and locked it in the rear room. I trim until the light gets dim, then I take the branches out to the pile. Worked 2.0.
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It was not breezy at the house, but when I got home, it was. I did not park on the brick first time. As soon as I got out of my car, it was slowly starting to rain! That did not stop me from letting the cats out. It slowly started raining more and more. No kittens tonight. For a short time, Zila was trying to catch the rain! It was beginning to get a bit wet when I let them in. Alay made a strange leap towards me: She jumped and swept both front legs across to one side, like she was trying to hit a ball with a bat. Alay trying to climb the phone books to get up to the high window where Puddypie and Zila go. Alay jumped toward me and her body hit my throat. Zila is trying to catch the drips of water that is coming off the blanket that is hanging off the roof in front of the window outside. / Loud music today and mexican music until 6:00 at lot 31. When I was working today, it wasn't hot, actually it was a bit cool, but I was sweating like crazy. / Getting dizzy. Worked 1.0.
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I parked on the brick again - first time. The cute kitten came. There has been something wrong with her eyes. But at one point, she jumped toward Alay in play! Alay moved a bit but she did not fall down. Large belly and tight. Strange sensation in mostly lower part of torso! Getting hot. Having a few pains in belly. What is going on now?! Why do I continue to be plagued with belly problems? I with I could be free of it. Getting a bit dizzy. Large belly. / I love chocolate! Again it was not hot today, but I got soaked in sweat. And my pocket went empty again {of Kleenex tissue}. Bush has sold out to the evil side! Mother was nice to me tonight, she did not give me any trouble about anything. Strange; someone was fallowing me on the way home. He was in a medium sedan with a plate starting with 141 I think. Everytime I changed lanes, he changed to be behind me. Everytime I made a turn, he made the same turn and kept his distance. Then he would move into my lane again. I was thinking of stopping somewhere to see what he would do, but I decided to call 911. It was after I had turned onto 19 Avenue from Dunlap, I was in the middle lane, then he moved into the middle lane, so I picked up the phone and I think I pressed all the correct buttons, and put the phone to my ear. The call did not seem to go through, that lousy phone! Then I started slowing down as I usually do along there (because I turned on a green light {timing with the lights}). Then to my surprise, he moved into the left lane and then continued to go on ahead. So I put the phone away. Strange. Worked 2.0.
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The black kitten came tonight also. / I raced over to the library again today, I somehow had missed checking on "Hi Tech". It has been sliding down like a slippery slope!! I trimmed the neighbor's tree branches that were over the hedge. Then I got to the top of the hedge tonight! I'm getting close to the end. There seems to have been a major storm at home when I was gone but not at the house. It must have gotten very windy and it rained. But the only thing of mine that was out of place was one of my barrels. The blankets were not blown up! Worked 3.5.
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I now have $48 (tortillas and carrot roots, "Fry's"). And also after I got home, I saw that apparently Carla has parked her car up against the trailer. I did not see any damage to the car. The cute kitten actually went to rub against Zila! But Zila continues to spat. A dull achy pain in the left part of head above eye. / Loud mexican music today from lot 91. I went to the library again today because I noticed that "Harrys" is going up on high volume and I was going to see about putting in a sell on it. The trouble with "Harrys" is that it has, I think, been my worst stock in the second group. I see now why it is now going up: It is being bought by another company. A much better company: "Whole Foods Market". I now have $47 (library). I now have $25 (apple fruit sauce "Food 4 Less"). I now have $11 (gas bill). I watched a very strange show tonight. I have missed it numerous times in the past, but tonight I watched it for the first time partly because it was on later. It was; "Peggy Sue Got Married" (1986). I kept thinking that something interesting is going to happen. But when the end came, it put me in a sad mood. Because I got to thinking about the things that I have missed in my life and the things that I have not had yet. I now have $96 (paid). I hate rich people. They're snobs. They get what they want whether they need it or not, because they have money, while the cries of the poor people go unheard. Worked 3.0.
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There has been a strange sore spot in my belly recently. It is low and a little left of center. / I finished the oleander hedge tonight! It took me 11 days and a little bit less than 26 hours! It might be the best trimmed oleander hedge in the world. This is the first time in my life that I have trimmed an entire oleander hedge AND done a thorough job and a good job. While I was finishing up the hedge, I found a large cocoon like thing that was almost half as large as the palm of my hand. It was while. I did not think that it wasa a moth, because I don't think that there are any large moths of this kind in Phoenix, besides, it was too lite weight. I did not know what it was, but the only other possibility was that a spider made it. Although, I did not find it in a web. So I cut off one part of it, about one sixth of it. I looked inside. There was a smallish spider inside. It did not move, so I thought that it might be a dead one. To test this, I took a small stick and put it inside and touched the legs of the spider. The legs were soft so I knew that it could not be a long dead spider, and the legs moved a bit! Then I saw that the spider had an eggs ball in it's grip and was sort of walking around it. So then I hurriedly carried it over and tossed it into the oleander hedge. As I did so, I saw the spider put two legs out the hole that I had put in the spider's creation! {I barely escaped with my life! Ha, ha.} Then I got a flashlight and saw that I guess it was seated fairly well, the open hole was on the bottom. I'm surprised that I did not encounter more creatures while I was working on the hedge. All I came upon was some baby birds, a few spiders, a few large black bees and their homes, a few lizards, and a locust or two, one of which hit me when it was jumping and I thought it might be a bee coming to get me. Worked 4.0.
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/ It's getting very windy. Things are blowing around. It is raining. Carla's air conditioning unit's cover has been blown off and is sitting on the roof half on the roof and half off on my side. There was only a few things of mine that needed to be picked up. But I lost the clothes pen off the west blanket on the south side that is on my roof. I guess it got windy but there was no rain storm at the house. I checked the spider capsule, and saw that it was exactly as I had left it except that the spider had sealed the open hole that I had put in it. And I think that she had also put a few "threads" so that the capsule would not blow away. I had a bit of a talk with Eric {brother}. Kevin was also there, he's strange. He would not answer my questions. And Teresa was there, when she was in her car going out, she asked me if I had lost weight. I did not think so. But I weighted my body, and I am now down to 184.5! Worked 2.5.
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Cut hair. / I went to the library to check on "Harry's". It seems to be in a new winddown a little bit under $1. I also checked on a few others including "Zila", and I found that "Hoovers" seems to be changing their "Big Charts" to rinky dinky strange tiny ones that have no up/down and no volume! I was angry. I now have $88. I went looking around a bit and found a candy-red eyeglass case at "Osco". It's pretty and neat, it has a flip open hatch. So I could not resist buying it. Do I need this? I could not think how I would use it, certainly not for my eyeglasses, but I got to thinking; if I don't buy it, then think of a way that I could use it, then go again to buy it, then it would not be there. {This has happened to me too many times.} But if I buy it, and can't figure how to use it, I could get a refund. {Very unlikely to get a refund: I lose the item, and/or the receipt.} There was only one like it. And I found some "Johnny Lightnings" -- at "Osco"! It was very tempting, but I resisted buying any. When I got to the house, the pile was gone! I was going to get the round table that Kevin had put on the pile and I was going to take the top off. It was held with 8 screws and it seemed to be a good heavy base. I now have $72 ("Pizza Hut" pizza). Worked 2.0.
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Had 2 bad pains in right part of chest, so I stopped eating. Is it my pizza? Is it the chocolate? Or is it something else? Belly has gotten large again, I must be very careful with what I eat. I forgot and left the carrot roots out! / I did errands today. I now have $62 (some food containers and some new shampoo! "Walmart"). I now have $52 (thick black pens! They are lousy. I was going to give mother some of them but only 1 of them works well out of 13! I am going to return them. And {got} a pencil case. Do I need this? It was very pretty so again I could not resist. -- "Staples" - they were open!). I now have $46 (some more cat food. "Pets mart"). Shortly after I started for home, there was lightning and thunder, the thunder was very loud, it scared me more than it scared Alay! Then it started to rain, and was raining most of the way home. But shortly after I got home, it really started raining! Worked 0.0.
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/ It was blazing hot -- again to day after the rain storm. One would think that it would cool off some. I got to APS! I now have c168! (APS). I had an ordeal; after paying my electric bill (I got an earlier start today!), with "$0" in my wallet, I went to the library to check on the stocks. Then I came home to get Alay, then went on to the house. Sooner than I got to Greenway I found myself in a bad traffic jam. It was going both ways, the only lane open was the center lane and some people were using that! It took awhile to get passed Greenway, but to my surprise, that was not the end of it. So as I was sitting waiting, my motor started acting up. It was revving up. The tank was close to empty but I figured that I should have plenty. Then the red light started to flicker so I knew the motor was beginning to over heat. I wondered if the fan was working. I needed to get my car up to speed, but I was trapped, there was no place to go. So then I started trying to get my car over into the right lane. One guy's car had already quit on him and he got out and pushed it off. So after awhile, I got over and turned off. It was in an apartment complex. I stopped and opened the hood and looked around. It seemed to be okay and the fan was working (I cannot hear the fan when the motor is going, the motor was off). So I got going again and went through the place to Thunderbird. I was the last one in line to turn out on to Thunderbird (I had to turn right). A nice large man in a huge white Ford let me turn out. Then I got over down the street and made my U-turn. Then I went through a parking lot and got onto 19 Avenue again and it was clear of the jam. I never did see what was causing it. So all the way to the house from there I remained uptight. But I got to the house okay. I worked for about 2 hours, then I started having trouble and never did get recovered despite the measures I had takin. Then later when I was checking over my car, I locked my keys in my car and my extension grabber was locked in the truck. But no real problem, I got out my emergency key. This key has saved me a number of times. After I had gotten into my car, I showed mother my grabber because she had no idea what I was talking about (even though I had shown it to her years ago). And she said; "I should have one of those". I now have $70 (paid). Worked 2.0.
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I now have $55 (although the tank was not very low (at 303 miles!) I decided to fill it up because of the trouble I had had earlier). I now have $43 (I needed to buy a "TV Guide" -- again! And more tortillas (the guy asked me, "What do you do with the tortillas?") And 2 more (smaller) food containers). In trouble again with a lot of burping. And I have not recovered from my slowness yet. / I needed to go get some coolant (at "Autozone"). I now have $35. When I was sweeping the rear bathrooms patio, I had Alay out of the cage and she went through the fence and came up to the edge of the pool and looked in. Then she carefully came away (if she had turned, she would have lost her balance and fallen into the pool. I'm surprised that she did not fall in. I was going to rush over to get her out). Then she came out through the fence again. Then when I was working, I got to working on mother's best hand clipper because it would not cut the vines and it has been a poor cutter for such things as vines for a long time and I had nothing else to do. I worked on it for hours, struggling to figure out how to make it cut the way it should. I did all sorts of things to it. I was hoping to make it so that it would be like new. For awhile, I was succeeding, but at some point, after I had gotten the thing apart and put it on the grinder, things went wrong. In the end, the clipper was mostly ruined and I was very disappointed. I don't know much about how to sharpen things but this thing, like a lot of things, was not made to be repaired! It was a good clipper, the best that I have known. I was surprised that mother did not get after me for working on it. I worked on it until midnight, then had nothing to show for it. Then I checked my car: Since it had started over heating Friday, the only thing that I could think of that was wrong with it, was that it might be a bit low on coolant. So I checked the reservoir; it had only a bit in the bottom. I checked the radiator and it seemed full. So I put some in the reservoir, but I had to go buy some more. So then I put some more in. Then I rushed to the house and when I got there, the fan was not coming on. I guess it was not hot enough! Then as I was getting ready to go home, I checked it again to see if I was correct that some coolant would go into the radiator from the reservoir. So I checked the reservoir, and It did! So I guess that it was only a bit low on coolant. Worked 5.0.
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I was doing much better tonight, mostly awhile after I had gotten home. I got to working on the underneath compartment that is in front of the front door {the walkway with the steps}. For years it has been sagging down in the middle. So I cleaned it out and put some bricks inside to support the middle. It took me less than an hour. And I found a lizard that was inside a brick, and I showed it to Zila, but she did not catch it. / Having a strange pressure in my nose, at a bit after 5:00. I pounded my head a bit with my hammer (the front top that effects the nose) but it had no effect. Not feeling well and having some of those pains again in my head. I have had many such pains for a long long time. They are there, and then they are gone. I hope that something good is happening. But what's going on with my nose? Now having a pressure in my head! I don't feel like doing anything today. (in the shower) Something that I did not need: When I got to the house, I found mother working upstairs on the far corner filing cabinets and the front (lower) room. She had told me that the middle filing cabinets were the priority, but she was not working on those! (She had me clear off the tops some weeks ago, it was a lot of work.) She was going to throw away a huge amount of papers of father's and magazines. So I was busy looking through the stuff. It was a major job, I could not look at everything. I did not get any work done when I very much need to earn some more money. I kept Alay in the cage the whole time, I never touched her! Worked 0.0.
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I now have $32 (carrot). After I got home, I saw that someone has stolen my thin brick that I had in front of my trailer for my water coming out of the cooler drain hose so that the water would not hit the pavement. Earlier, I had noticed some mexicans at lot 89 looking at me strangely when I was getting ready to go. {Mexicans are strange.} I bet that they were waiting for me to leave so that they could come and steal it. I think that it was these same people who stole my concrete pylons that I had in the same place. It makes me angry. In this park, the only people who steal from me are my {mexican} neighbors! From now on I should know that if anyone is looking at me strangely -- that they are up to something! I now have $272 (paid). Worked 0.5.
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/ I have had some success: Last night, I got my letter to "Hoovers" mostly done {why do I bother?} in printing. In one night I got started on it and got nearly all of it done! But I do not have an address for it yet. At this point, I don't know if "Hoovers" has an address, or if any website has an address. Then today, I had a very difficult time getting myself woke up, but I got going earlier. I went to "Fry's" and got a money order for my insurance. I now have $37! So then I went to the place and paid it. I asked the woman why it says on my bill; "To pay in full 233.00". And "Total charges 234.00". She called another woman and she said that it was because I was over charged $1 and that I would get credit for it. (I paid $234.00.) What?? What do you expect, it's one woman talking to another woman. Then she walked away. I thought she was getting papers for me so I sat there waiting. After sitting there awhile, I yawned, and as I did so she came over to me and asked; "Are you okay?" I said yeah. Then she walked away again. Then it occurred to me that I might be waiting for nothing, that there might not be any papers. So I waited awhile longer for her to come by and then I asked her if she was getting anything for me. She said no. So then I said that I had another question. I asked her if the payment for the year would be 466.00. She did not know. So I got up and walked out. Then I went to "Napa". I asked the guy for fuel port caps. At first he did not know what I was thinking of, he thought it was some thing else. Then I said something like "Where the fuel goes into the tank". Then he said, "Oh, gas caps!" Then they laughed a bit. {Most humans are such idiots.} He had only one and showed it to me. After I had been looking it over for awhile, he said that he would take "A couple dollars off" to make me happy. I then asked him why. And at the end he said that he could add the $2 if I would like that better. Then he said something like, that would be a surprise wouldn't it? It seemed like it MIGHT be good quality, and he said that it should last much longer than a year and a half and he said that if I EVER have any problem with it that I could return it. So I bought it. I now have $21. Then I went to "Pep Boys" but could not find the cap that I looked at some time ago, but they were at about the same prices as the one I bought, and "Napa" should be better quality. Then I went to the library branch to ask about finding a mailing address for "Hoovers". I walked in and went to that one woman that I have seem there a lot, I asked her. She went to the nearest computer, but then when I told her that it was "Hoovers", she showed me a huge "Hoovers" book. I told her that I did not know that "Hoovers" had a book. She found the address in the front of it. Then later I talked to her again and thanked her, and she told me that she did not know that "Hoovers" had a website. Getting the address took a very short time! I have been doing better, I have not been burping nearly as much. Worked 1.5.
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/ Alay has been "digging" at her ears recently, so I put in some of the ear medicine. I went to the library to check on a few stocks. I got angry. I checked into "Hoovers" and 2 other sites, but couldn't hardly do any checking. But I did see that "Harrys" is not going up yet. And I was in a bad mood from then on. I then came home to get Alay, but I could not find her. I called and called, but she did not let me know where she was. I have been getting the impression from her for some time, that she would rather not come with me to the house. So I decided to go on without her. I don't know if it was that, today, or if it might have been the stuff that I put in her ears that made her go and hide. This is the first time ever that I have gone to the house without Alay! I missed her a bit. I was more crazy than usual in my car and was not paying enough attention because of my bad mood and I went through a yellow light at 19 Avenue and Thunderbird. I saw it go red. I was following another car through. "Trader Joe's" ! Mostly cakes and 1 almond nuts. I now have $3! I think from now on, I will leave Alay at home. I now have $23 (paid). Worked 2.5.
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It is cool tonight! Alay's eye seems very cloudy now. Her left eye. Zila has been getting very anxious to get out side after I get home: After I had put her harness on, I went to get her leash and returned, and she was gone! She had pushed the door and gone out. So I went out and I was chasing her down! (walking) She stopped when she got to lot 31, and that's when I caught up to her. / When I was on my way home, when I was about to make my right turn off of 19 Avenue onto Bell, I saw 2 sporty small cars go across in front of me through a red light. They were on the far right of Bell going West. I don't know what was going on. Worked 3.0.
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I have started on a new plan for the kitten. (The black one is not coming around.) I put her food in a bowl and I take it in with me when I go in. And I bring it out when I come home. So she can eat as much as she wants when I am out. And I can move the bowl closer to me. She won't let me touch her so far. Belly getting large. / When I went to the library today. I asked about stock market web sites. They did not know anything! But then I asked about what happened to Big Charts, and she found "Big Charts"! I found "Big Charts"! But it's not the same as "Hoovers". Bioject is going up again and Hi Tech is continuing to go down! But it made me irritable to see that because of "Hoovers" changing things, I missed a good buy on Orbital. I then went to the house and did very well at mowing the lawn, but I did not get all of it done. Worked 3.0.
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I now have $11 (---"Fry's" --- chocolate, 2 "TV Guides"---"Live Long and Prosper", now c249!, shampoo -- "V05" "Naturals" "Vanilla Blossom"). / I now have $8 (mower gasoline). I finished mowing the lawn. Then I drained the mower oil! I have not changed the oil in around 2 years! But I did not do nearly as well mowing today. I now have $63 (paid). Then as I was about to go for home, I was feeling very bad. In my head mostly, and my eyes were hurting, more my left eye. I was feeling bad, but this was different from the usual. I did not know what to do for it and I did not know if I could get home, but I did not want to stay at the house. So I went. By the time I got home, I was better. My eyes were bothering me and hurting more than usual. Also I was having a pain in my upper right arm. Worked 2.5.
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I now have $60 (carrot roots "Fry's"). / Left eye hurting again. I now have $20 ("GNC" "Ultra Mega Gold"). The young man said something like; "That's something, exact change." And I said; "Yeah, I'm the exact change man." {At Trader Joes they started calling me that some time ago.} I went and filled up my tires, and I found the right rear mostly empty. I now have $22 (I had a talk with the manager about the pens I had bought, about that "Staples" should have a good pocket calculator (she said that I should event one!) and that "Staples" should stay open later. I returned the junk "Entre" pens and exchanged them for a 4-pack, (mine a 5-pack) of a "Marks-a-Lot" - c298. I gained money! They did not have black card paper.) I now have $13. I went to "Office Max" looking for the paper and found a 12 pack of the same "Marks-a-Lot" pens ("Staples" does not have one) at what I thought was a better price. So I bought it. They did not have the paper either. So I rushed over to "Walmart" looking for the paper. They did not have it either. So I rushed to "Staples" to refund the pens I had bought (it was actually a better buy with the 5 pack) but they were closed! I got the whole lawn edged! Worked 2.5.
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On my way home on 7 Avenue after Glendale, there were only 2 other cars around, they were aways ahead of me. One was in the left lane and one was in the middle lane (I was in the middle lane). I thought I saw the left lane car move over to be behind the other car. This car was a medium sized car, silver with I think a out of state plate, it was a sedan, maybe an "Infiniti". The other car was smaller. Then he started flashing his brites at the car in front of him. I was wondering what is going on? He flashed about 4 times, then the smaller car sped up and then went into the right lane. I was thinking that, that might be the end of it, so I did not get my phone. Then the smaller car turned right at Dunlap. My turn was left at Dunlap and by now I was in the left lane. He also went into the left lane and when he came to Dunlap, he slowed way down and stopped for a bit and it was a green light. I think he was looking down the street east to see what the other car was doing. Maybe he wanted to make sure that the other car was continuing down the street away from him. I don't know why a person would get behind someone and then flash their lights at that someone. Unless he is the sort of person who likes to torment people and have fun doing it. If the smaller car was in the left, and had come over in front of him, that would explain his behavior. But I think I saw this car come from the left and get behind the other car. Then he turned left (that's my turn!) but not from the left turn lane, from the left lane. He had slowed down so much that by now I was turning immediately behind him. I was wondering what he was going to do if he was a nasty person and liked to do things to people. My heart was pounding feverishly. I did not like that. {This makes me angry: That I was such a spineless wussy in these situations: I was almost afraid of my own shadow. I don't know what happened that night, or if he was a bad guy, probably was. Wish I had not been afraid. He might have been afraid of me! He had not done anything to me, and I don't know what was going on with them. But then, and for most of my life, I was barely keeping myself alive, and plagued with feeling bad most of the time. I would rarely feel up to a fight with someone, I only wanted to be left alone. I did not want to cause any trouble, and any day I might have another crisis. Wish my life had been different.} But I was now behind him, with my headlights shining on his car and I had made my usual swift turn and my tires had made their usual chirping sounds. So I was wondering if he was wondering if I had a problem with him and if I was going to do something to him. But I was surprised when it wasn't long when he moved over to the right lane. But he was going my speed. But when we started to come to 19 Avenue, he started slowing down slightly, but he did not brake. I slowed down also, by down shifting because I wanted to get over into the right lane and the right turn lane. But I did not want to get in front of him! If he had braked, I then would have been in front of him because I was not willing to brake at this point. But he had slowed down so much that we both were going rather slow. Even though I wanted to make my right turn, I did not want him to think that I was following him, so at 19 Avenue, I kept slowing down and moved over into the left turn lane and turned left. I did not want him to think that I might want to start something. Then he turned right. I wanted him to think that I was now not concerned with him and had gone on my way, so I went down the street far enough so that if he was watching me, he would probably figure that I was going to keep on going. So then I made a U-turn and went through the green light without stopping. I was in my usual middle lane. He stayed in the right lane. At this point I got the phone and called 911. I was talking to the the woman about this guy, and she sounded nice and concerned! Then he turned into the new "QT" station and was going slow in the front outside lane. Then I came along and I put down the phone because I did not want him to see me on the phone. And as I went by, I looked over to see if I could get a look at him. I barely saw an outline of his head, he seemed like he might be a hoodlum to me, a dark skinny guy, maybe a pimp or something like that. I did not think he wanted anything there and I wondered if he was "on to me". And he didn't, because after I had passed by, he came out again into the right lane. He was now behind me! But he had not gone far when he turned into another place. At this point, I was too far away to see what it was, or what he was doing. This was the last I saw of him because I had kept on going. And so the woman and I ended our conversation. And I kept looking behind me, but he was not following. A strange experience. One cannot be too careful with all the weirdos and mean people out there that the government has given a license to. / Left eye hurting again. I rushed to the bank to cash my "Schwab" check. On the way there I dodged with my "Dodge" a bent screw driver and almost lost control. I hurriedly steered straight again so that I did not hit the center divider. My steering wheel is too slippery! I now have $313. I now have $59! (rent money order "Fry's"). I now have $49 ("Trader Joes", I forgot something and I had a talk with the manager of "Trader Joes". This is the first that I have seen this guy.) I now have $46. Worked 1.5.
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/ I went to the office to pay my rent and to complain again about lot 84. This is the first that I told Sharri about the air conditioner cover sitting half way off the roof. I now have $32. "Trader Joes" again. Mostly cakes and bread and something else: A flowering potted plant for mother (I should have bought it yesterday). They told me that it is a Gerber Daisy. c299. It has orange-red flowers. I think that this is the first plant that I have ever bought and the first flower. It seemed so neat that I decided to buy it. Worked 4.0.
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On my way home, after I had turned onto Dunlap, I saw a small thin shinny thing like a pen, laying on the street in the right lane (I was in the left). So I turned around and then saw a box laying upside down on the street. (It was a grey metal box with a handle and a latch. Painted grey.) At this point, I knew someone had lost a box of something but I did not know what it was. So I stopped in the center lane, put on my hazard flashers, got my long distance flashlight and went and got the box and started picking up using the box to put it in. Fortunately, there was very little traffic. I picked up as rapidly as I could, but at one point I looked up and saw 2 cars coming towards me, so I got off the street! It was drill bits! In a few seconds, I had picked up 16 drill bits, one was busted. But I don't think it happened when it hit the street. Plus 3 other strange bits and a brite green razer cutter that was mangled some but the blade moves in and out. The bits are mostly sharp. / Steve showed up! I was on the phone with Eric when he came. Then I was going to go in to watch some shows, but he came and we talked, for a bit over an hour. I was disappointed that he was not more impressed with my recent sell of 304%, {a stock} especially with things being bad now {in a bear market}. Also he has no interest in putting money into stocks. He talked mostly about his stuff. Worked 1.0.
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Having a bad burping time. What went wrong? I think it started earlier because I had some burping earlier when I was talking to Steve. Because of my burping problem, I stayed out extra long with the cats. Then I got the idea to check to see if the litter box would work for raising up Alay's cage so that she can see out the windows to see where we're going and to see the streets and the cars and the trees and everything. I also brought out the cage. I think the box will work but I will need 2 of them. I was starting to get the cage and the box out of the car and to start bringing everything in when I found Alay inside the water bowl compartment {outside}. She knows that she is not supposed to be in there. I don't know which end she went in. I have bricks set up at both ends to help keep her out. I went to grab her out and she jumped out. As a result, the front blocker brick got knocked over and it came down on the food bowl for the kittens and it got smashed to bits! I put the cats in and stayed out awhile longer to clean up the mess. And I have been wanting to change the bowl from one of my best bowls to an old plastic bowl. I have been wanting to change it for several days, but I have not been able to find the plastic bowl. As the brick smashed the bowl, it made a noise that caused Alay to run and she ran under my car. I don't want her to go there either! So I grabbed her out but had trouble getting her. / I now have $11 (more apple fruit sauce "Food 4 Less"). Worked 1.0.
{My Omni is a family car / economy car / race car. I could do zero to 60 in about 13 seconds and get 29 miles to the gallon doing it! And with 4 seats inside.}
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I now have $4 (tortillas and carrot roots "Fry's"). Mother could not find her old plastic bowl either, so I got one of my new plastic bowls for the kitten's food. I also redid the bricks a bit, changed that one brick with another and cleaned up some debris. Getting sick to my stomach. This is rare for me. What could it be? The pills? It has been a long time since the pills, probably too long, and I haven't had this trouble in the past. Pulling out whiskers on the left (it needs it there). I pulled out 200 with my fingers and then a lot more with the tweezer. / (After I got my grey shirt mended, I wore it for 2 more days, and now---)... I now have $3 (library). I see that stocks are headed down again mostly. I have been in need of a better carburetor for my car for a long time, but have not been able to get going early enough to do anything about it. The accelerator stick is getting so bad now that it caused me to stall the motor when I was starting up from a light after I had been to the library. Then, when I was on my way to the house (I went by home first because I saw some mexicans come when I was leaving, they came, I was moving out, they turned around and went out. For awhile, they were going the same way that I was going when I was going to the library until they turned off of 19 Avenue. So I came by home to take a look) I was in front waiting on the red light at Green-way. I wanted to get ahead of the large white Chrysler truck that was beside me in the right lane so that I could dodge the bump that was in front of me. There is getting to be a bad bump there in the intersection in the left lane. So when the light went green, I took off. And when I did, my propeller tires screeched very loudly! This is the first that this has ever happened with me in the Omni. I wondered what made the difference. For I have revved it up high and taken off rapidly many many times bit this never happened. Could it have anything to do with my fuel tank being low on fuel? Or some days ago I aired up my tires, and there is less tread on them now, or could it be that I revved up the motor extra high? I now have $58 (paid). Worked 2.0.
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I now have $44 (fuel for Omni). I had gone 327 miles! And I had almost 2 gallons in the tank! This means that I could have gone around another 55 miles! If so, that would be 382 miles!! And to my surprise, this would only be 29.38 miles per gallon. But I figure, that from a full tank, I should be able to go at least 350 miles. Also, I changed my fuel port cap to the new "Napa" one (703-1603). The first locking cap has not been locking. This new one seems to be for sure better quality, but it is very noisy. New (second) locking cap at miles: 106,773. I now have $27 (I bought at "Fry's" lots of carrot roots and tortillas). I had ran out of chocolate and then I forgot to buy some more. I wish I had had it. As can be seen, {In my "Record book"} I got up very late {About 3:40 after noon}. I had a very difficult time getting going. And because of my mistake of not having it, in the end it cost me not being able to do any work. Worked 0.0.
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I now have $20 (chocolate! "Fry's"). Getting slightly dizzy. A sting in crotch. Alay jumped about 2 feet, then I guess she over reacted when she landed and jumped again and landed in the same spot that she started from! Then she ran and jumped around like crazy until she was a bit winded. / As I got going today, I turned out on 17 Avenue. Then I saw something laying in the middle of the street. So I stopped and reversed to get it. But then I saw the crazy man's truck coming down the street from the north. So I stopped where I was on the side of the street and sat there. Then they turned into the park! I don't think they saw me. So then I sneaked over and saw that they had stopped at the lot that is in the middle against the wall by the dumpster not far from where the crazy man lived! I think the crazy man was in the truck, but I did not get a good look. But they stopped where mexicans live and I think the other man was a mexican!!?? What's going on? And I was told that the crazy man had moved to California, and later his truck was hauled away. So what's going on? It wasn't long until he turned around and came out of the park I think, so I got going and went around into the park from down the street to turn around. But when I got turned around and came out, he was gone. I went down the street looking but could not see the truck. They had disappeared. Something hit the house! I was sitting in the kitchen when I heard 3 bangs. It sounded like some one pounding on the rear wall of the house. I got Teva and went out in the rear lawn, but there was nothing that I could see. It was the same with the front. Worked 2.5.
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On my way home, I saw a very attractive blond woman. She was wearing a red top over a white skirt. She walked to the "Arco" station and went in, then she came out with something and went the other way north of Thunderbird. Then she crossed the street to be on the west side. She was looking all around at the people that were around. Could she be the same woman that I saw at "Fry's" that one night? When I was sitting out, I felt something hit my shoe. It was the cute kitten! I played with her a bit, but she won't let me pet her. But she is getting friendlier. The black kitten came last night and ate a bit of food out of the bowl and again came tonight and ate much more. Alay pooped outside! She moved ahead forward so that she would not fall in it. I put the ear stuff in Puddypie's ears. He's been having trouble with his ears. / When I came out today, I took photographs of the lot 84 situation. But first, I saw that the hood was unlatched with my Omni. I wondered how that happened. And also shortly after I got started for home last night, I heard a strange sudden loud pop sound. I did not know what it was. I wondered if someone was shooting a gun. I had stopped at a station down the street in the light and and walked all the way around my car but did not see any holes in my car. It sounded like it came from the right rear area of the car. Now I think it was my hood jumping up and being caught by the safety latch. I think what happened was that I had unlatched the the hood as I was getting ready to go home because I thought that I was going to need to work on the reversing light switch because I have been having trouble with it again. but I did not work on it. So I guess the hood was unlatched all the way home. {My damn memory.} Worked 2.0.
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I got home extra late tonight. Then I was hearing strange noises over at lot 84 but did not see and thing. And Carla's car was gone. Then after awhile, I saw Eric walking away from her trailer. What was he doing over there? Then Carla came home but Eric was behind her in his small white car. So she took off down the street and Eric took off after her. {My crazy neighbors} I was trying to eat my tortillas and this is when I started calling 911. Immediately after I had called the first time, Carla came home again. She wasn't there long and was trying to leave when Eric showed up again. They had a verbal fight again. He kept asking her; "Why did you lie to me?" And she said that she had quit her job and did not care about her son. Then they both sped off at high acceleration. By the time the police came, it was much later (as usual) and they did absolutely nothing (as usual) The police are pathetic. The black kitten did not show up. Strange dream. / Worked 1.5.
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The black kitten came tonight and for the first time I saw that it is a he. This is what I have suspected from early on from the way the kitten acted and this is why Puddypie has not liked him. It is very obvious now that he is a he, but this is the first look that I have gotten. And the cute one let me pet her a bit. / We now have a new neighbor at lot "87". I talked to Eric {brother} a bit today. He walked over to where I was working on the front yard rose bed. Mother went into one of her tantrums and then she went berserk tonight!!! Only because of a chair that I had left out of place in the great room and a small pile of papers in the sewing room! I was trying to watch the interview with Anne Heche when we had a very bad fight. She caused me to miss about half of it. I now have $ 110 (paid). Worked 3.5.
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The black kitten did not show up tonight. Alay lost her balance on the concreate and fell over on her back but she hit her head on my shoe. After I first got home, the cute kitten let me pet her several times! And I held the door open and let her look inside my trailer. / I went to the office but the office was closed -- again! Then I went to APS. I now have $87. "We" had to wait a long time. The man sitting next to me was very impatient. We spoke a bit. I said to him and a woman; and also when I was called, I told the APS woman that maybe APS should have an express lane; no questions, no delays. When I said it to the man, he agreed with me totally but then he spent awhile at the counter. The APS woman was amused, and gave me a card to fill out. I now have $79 ("Food 4 Less"). I got 4 apple fruit sauce but paid for 3 because I returned 1. I told the check-out woman who is now the manager! That there were 2 that had gone bad but she would go for only 1. I told her that she was a tough customer. (She does not hardly know anything about sealed food from the way that she had trouble comprehending what I was telling her. Maybe I started wrong. I started with; "I have been riding around with a bomb in my car." I found the jar last night and it has been expanding. I have had to release pressure several times to keep it from exploding.) I now have $73. I bought at "Staples" 2 more "Marks-a-Lot" 5 packs. At "Pets Mart" I bought some more litter and cat food and a third red lead for Zila - c999, c359, c459. I now have $53. I now have $40 (gas bill). Getting dizzy. Worked 2.5.
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Tonight the cute kitten let me pet her some more and she was purring! / I went to the office today and found Sharii in! I told her my concerns again with lot 84. (After all this time, absolutely nothing has been done about these 3 things, the sewer and the things hanging off the roof.) Then I went to the library to check on the stocks again. Things are bad except Harrys is up a bit and Zila is going down and Orbital is mostly staying down. And that woman with the strange Jewish like face who seems sad all the time of which I had been seeing at the other library was there again and after I got a computer she got the computer next to me. We talked a bit. First she asked me if I was doing stock stuff. I was surprised that she knew. Then the librarians found a web site for me: www.diecastillustrated.com. I found "Johnny Lightnings" in there. I made some copies. I now have $39. Coming away from the library while I was on my way to the house, a guy in a medium sized yank tank came out in front of me going out turning left. I jammed on the brakes and the Omni started skidding. The front end started turning toward the rear end of his car. I have done a lot of skidding in the Omni, but not at 55! It usually starts turning on me, I don't know what causes it, but at this speed it surprised me. I let up off the brake and rapidly got the car turned straight again. It shook me some but then I put the pedal down to the floor to get up to speed again. It happened on the approach to Greenway. I'm glad that I don't ride around in a yank tank boat!! {My omni, the race car!} Getting a bit dizzy tonight. Worked 1.5.
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After getting home, the cute kitten let me pet her much more! She stopped eating and started to lay down and was purring, she was liking it that much. And I held her in my hands and brought her up to my face for a second! / For a car sticker? "What if you had never been born? Aren't you glad that you were not a victim of Pro-Choice?" / I mowed the whole lawn! While I was mowing, I thought up this; FETAL FATALITY MENTALITY INC. {-Another name for Pro-Choice} And then as I was mowing the rear, the catcher holder was bending down (the bar), so I stamped on the bar with my shoe and it busted off. But that did not stop me from mowing, I went and got my mower tools and a new holder and put it on. So I got the whole lawn mowed! Then after I was done, mother came walking in and said to me that because I got the whole lawn mowed, I must be tired. But I wasn't hardly any tired! Worked 3.5.
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The cute kitten is now following me around (at first), which is very dangerous for her. And she let me pet her several different times. And I picked her up and put her on the raised walk way in front of my door and I petted her some more. {It makes me nervous reading and typing this. I keep thinking; why didn't I take her in where she would be safe from all the evil mexicans who hates cats and my crazy neighbors? I think this, even though I know it did work out fairly well for her.} / I dreamed that I was walking out of a place that had a small parking lot. I was coming to my Omni when I saw a man get in and start up the motor as if it was his car. So I hurriedly came and lifted up the front end of the car so that he could not go anywhere. I had it up so high that the rear end was about touching the pavement. So then he got out and fled. So then I went inside thinking that everything was okay. I came out again a few minutes later to find that my car was gone. I went inside again and complained that my car had been stolen and I was trying to do something about it. I had trouble believing that someone would want to steal my car. I was telling everyone how lousy my car was in the eyes of most people. / Name for my company? : Starship Designers. {It wouldn't be until more than 15 years until I was able to use this name for my "company". Then it was stolen.} / I told mother the name for my company, and I was surprised that she liked it! {She hated Star Trek, and any show I liked.} Worked 0.5.
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I put the ear stuff into Puddypie's ears again ---- second time. / I found there to be no water! Alay ate a bit of tortilla -- her first! There was no water for the entire park. This was the worst out of water problem that the park has ever had in the 17 years that I have lived here. There was no water for more than half the day. I could not take my shower, but I washed my hands and my face with one of my jugs. My cooler ran out of water and it was getting very hot inside. It was hot day. They did not get the water going again until almost 5:00! And then it took almost 2 hours for the water to get inside my trailer. My cooler would not work without water and no water to get my cooler going "artificially". This is the first time that I have ever poured bucket fulls into my cooler instead of out of! And while I was trying to get water into my cooler and into my trailer, some idiot mexican woman was spraying water all over the street with her hose! Over across the street she was getting the whole street wet! It was irritating. I now have $20 ("Trader Joes"). Water jugs-16 {-To bring home.} Getting a bit dizzy. Worked 1.0.
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I now have $13 (chocolate "Fry's"). / I went rushing around as usual today. I wanted to refund the second group of pens today at "Staples". And I did so. I now have $19. But I also bought another pencil case, very pretty, light blue. So I now have $16. I asked the guy where I could buy black construction paper and he told me at "Craftmart". So I went to "Craftmart" and looked around at a few things and found the paper (it was pointed out to me) and bought it and 3 other things made of wood. They were (all c99) toy wheels 3/4". Maybe for my Block Sledge, discs 1 1/2", and tiny clothes pins. I now have $11. Then I rushed off to the house. On the way I saw a blue-green Camaro with printed on the rear that said; Caution: Do not drive faster than your angels can fly". I had that strange black plastic thing in my car thinking that mother might want it for her painting. It is a curved "stem" with 2 round discs at the top and a round base at the bottom on roller wheels. I have been keeping it for many months and have never known what it is. It was a rather hot day. I did not notice anything the slightest bit unusual except when I was coming in to go to "Staples", I saw 3 young people standing out in the parking lot talking. I had no idea what they were talking about. It was 2 guys and a pretty young blond woman with a cute butt. I was hoping to see her again when I came out, but they were gone. I also saw an attractive young woman with a large attractive butt inside "Staples". I heard that this was her first day at work. I have been having a soreness in my left part of my belly very low, since I got up today. And as usual, I don't know what is causing it. When I got to the house, after bringing in my stuff (Teresa was there with a "patient"). I got out the black thing and rinsed it off with the hose and then brought it into the garage to dry off. Then I saw mother and she asked me if I had been listening to the radio. I said no, I never listen to the radio. Then she told me that the World Trade Center had been bombed. She switched on the television and was telling me about it. Then I switched off the sound so that I could question mother about it. Then I turned and started watching and watched the rest of the night. A horrible tragedy. It is difficult to believe that it happened. All those people! This certainly is not the worst thing that has happened to me, because this did not happen to me, but it is the worst thing that I have ever "witnessed" happening to other people. And I have been very much affected by it. I have been having some of the same reactions as other people. On television, I have been hearing some very wise comments from some people. Worked 0.0.
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I have been having some trouble in my belly, not feeling well. I gradually was feeling worse and got home very late. I was having an upset in my belly with some soreness. What is going on now? What did I do wrong? Could it be too much "Orange Almond"? / Despite it being hot yet, I put on my purple shirt because this is the closest thing I have to mourning clothes. I got going and searched and searched for post cards of the World Trade Center but could not find any. After all that rushing around, and running around, I ended up empty. But I did find some rocks, and I bought a small pouch full. Some very pretty ones, including pyrite. Some of these rocks I have never seen in my life. It was a place at Metrocenter. I now have $8. Worked 0.0.
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I have not seen the black kitten for days, but the cute one is now getting friendly enough that she came up to me where I sit on the raised walkway in front of my door again and again to be petted. / I went to that place again to learn more about the rocks that I had bought. And then I went to "Trader Joe's" again for the third time in a row, and again I did not find any cakes that I wanted to by. But on the way there, my motor quit twice! The first time when I was cruising! (It started up again because the ignition was on and the clutch engaged.) Then the motor quit when I was sitting at the red arrow to turn into Metrocenter. What's wrong with my car now? Is it the carburetor? Or could it need a new fuel filter? Or maybe it is a little bit of water in the fuel tank. I was pulling out more of my head hair tonight. On the left side of top near my part. Worked 0.5.
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I now have $63 (paid). I did not have any more trouble with my motor, but on the way home when I turned from 19 Avenue to bell I found my left rear tire to be mostly flat! So I turned around and filled it up and found 2 nails in it! And I filled up my spare - it was very low! Then after I got home I was going to try to plug my tire but I could not find my repair kit! I guess it is at the house. /// I was going to see if I could get to the house today so that I could do something with my tire(s) there, but I came out to find the left rear mostly flat again. So I took it off and put on the spare -- it's a Maypop tire! ("Firestone"). So then I got going (in my car) and went over to air up the tire that I had taken off, so that it would be easier to "plug" it after I got to the house and found my repair kit. (It should be at home, not at the house!) There was a woman there at the station at 19 Avenue and Bell where I had been last night. She was a large body mexican {-Aren't they all?} with something wrong with her car. I think it was an older yank tank - an "Fairmont" light blue. She had her car parked next to the air and water, straight in with the front end (front to the south). So I came along. I decided to park up as close as I could with my left flank up to the air and water (left flank to the south). There was a mexican man sitting near by, I don't know if they were together, I don't think so. He then got up and proceeded to "help" her. I had gotten out of my car when the stupid mexican man took off her radiator cap. When I saw what was happening, I jumped away from my car. Her hot coolant shot way up, then over, and then down all over the front of my car! Stupid mexicans! It went all over my hood, my windshield, and some on the roof. So then the woman said to me; "Sorry". {At least she spoke english.} Then the man said something and handed to me the water and I took it and put some water on my car. I then put air in the tire that was on my rear seat and took off. I had gotten up to 55 when a semi started turning in front of me. It was long and white. As I was approaching I saw the semi jump forward. Then he started turning. At 55, I figured that all I could do was to swerve. If I had slowed down, he would have smashed me! Stupid people! {My Omni, the race car.} Then as I was trying to get to the house, it wasn't long when I got behind a slow poke in a white utility truck in the left lane. After awhile I put on my headlights but that did nothing. For a long time I could not get around him. Then, after I got to the house, I was frantically searching for my tire repair kit. I could not find it at the house either! It makes me very irritable when I cannot find something. So then I decided that I had to go buy another one. So I did. At "Checker" -- c779. "Monkey Grip". This is the exact same one that I had already bought several years ago. So now I had two of them. I now have $55. So then I got to working on my tire and found and took out five things! Two might have been small sharp rocks, but at least two were small pieces of metal. And the large one that I plugged was a nail of about 1". I was going to put the tire on again but I discovered that it had lost too much air. So I left on the spare at miles 107,077. Toward the end of this I was getting very bad, totally stressed out I guess. I could not do anything else the rest of the night. I was in a lot of pain for awhile. At least some of the pain is in my head. I guess I had some how had injured my left thumb earlier and it was hurting some. Worked 0.0.
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I now have $39 "Fry's", tortillas, carrot roots, and banana fruits! I have not bought any for a long long time. After I had gotten home, I had a lot of pains in various spots, the main one was in my right large toe. /// I now have $23 (gasoline). Worked 1.0.
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Having some upset in belly and burping and then a sting in chest and arms and head. /// I now have $41 (apple fruit sauce "Food 4 Less"). I now have $29 (cat food "Pets Mart"). / Having an upset again in belly with a "Knot" in my belly and then not feeling well with a lot of burping for most of the rest of the night despite having taken the "GB-3" digestant. It stared shortly after I had eaten the cake. What is wrong with me? Worked 2.5.
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/// I went to the library to see what is happening to my stocks, but then they turned off all the computers shortly after I walked in because of a "virus". So then I went looking for a few things at "Target" then "K-Mart" then "Walmart" then "Home Depot". I now have $26. (new keys for Omni). I now have $12. (Electrical extension cables for mother for the light for the flag.) I now have $6. ("Trader Joe's" cakes). My legs are sore from all this running around. I had more burping trouble tonight, so I haven't hardly eaten anything. Worked 1.5.
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/// I went to the library again today to see about my stocks, but I would have to wait more than 45 minutes, so I left and went to "The Motor Car". But Marty was not there. So then I went to the large library again, as much as I hated to go. I saw Vicky there but not Andrew. I now have $5 (library). There's a lot of bad news, but the good news is that "Bioject" is holding at around 500% and "Harrys" is up higher with a new winddown at 7% up. "Harrys" was my worst company of the second group! Then I went to "Pep Boys" asking about "diplomat car flags". This is one of the things that I have wanted for many years. The guy did not know what I was talking about. {As often is the case.} Then I returned to "The Motor Car" and talked to Marty about the problems with my car. He said that it would be $100 for him to tell me what is wrong with my car and it would take several days. This is not what I want to here. Doing a lot better tonight but having a lot of low energy. Maybe a slight bit of a figure for the first time. Worked 0.5.
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My right outside leg skin was stinging earlier for a few minutes as if I got stung by something. What could it be? I asked mother if she might want to see if she could help me with the designing of my Block Sledge because I have not been able to design it. She said yes! She also went on to say that I would need to tell her what I had in mind for it and exactly what I wanted it to be!!! This is the first time in her life {and mine!} that she has ever said anything like this to me -- ever! It was encouraging. And I discovered that the smaller wooden wheels that I had bought fit my Block Sledge exactly in size! But I need to figure out how to do the axles for them. Getting slightly dizzy late tonight. I now have $79 (paid). /// Right outside leg skin stinging again. What could it be? Each night, the cooler has been rattling louder and louder. I have been concerned that the pully wheel is coming loose again. So I got out the ladder and got up on my roof. It was not coming off! But to see if it was tight, I went looking for the Allen wrench. I could not find it! It was not long ago when I used it on the cooler, but I looked and looked and looked and I could not find it! Only some days ago I was working on my cooler and it seems to me that I put it in a place where it would be easier to find! {Why, why, why, do I do this???!!! Leave the damn thing where it was, so that I can remember where it is! I've been doing this for decades!} Screw drivers do not work. I was defeated. So I put everything away and then rushed off to "Target" to buy some "Kleenex" tissue. The other day I had seen it there at only c89, but did not buy any partly because I did not have enough money. So I went in to find that the price is now up to c109! Again defeated, so I walked out. Then I rushed to the house. Then I got to thinking: Why didn't I check the price of one box on my way out? The woman had told me that they had only that day changed the price. Maybe the price has not yet been changed in the computer system. But it was too late to do that, I was too far away. {To justify returning there on that small chance.} Then I got to thinking about the "Target" that is not far from the house. So on the small chance that they have not yet changed the price in the computer, I went over there. The price on the shelf was c89! So I filled up my cart with 32 boxes (I think the most I have ever bought), and I was thinking; they better not give me any trouble about the price, because it is on the shelf. But there was no problem. But it is not that great of a buy, because I have afterward found that there is now only 160 tissues to a box. Years ago, it was 200 tissues to a box, then they lowered it to only 175 and made the box larger. And on a box that I have recently bought it states; "Still 175 tissues!" The liars! {They had 200!} So I now have $48. The President delivered a marvelous speech. I hope the stock market goes up tomorrow. Worked 0.5.
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Puddypie and Zila were together under the Jeep, and Puddypie vomited on Zila's tail! I am slightly dizzy again tonight. /// I got going early today, and I got the whole lawn mowed! But in through the middle, I was losing energy, so I ate the "Clif" bar. Then later I was getting a bot shaky, so I went in and ate 3 tortillas. I wonder when the regular shows are going to be on television again. Worked 4.5.
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/// I went out and worked on my car today. I took out a bolt. I thought I was solving my sticky accelerator problem, but sadly, it did not work. I noticed no difference! The linkage was hitting on that bolt. The linkage is so loose, that it moves about 1/8"! I now have $40 ("Trader Joes") -- two different things, bread and almond nuts c259 x 3 = c777! Worked 1.5.
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The black kitten has been coming again and eating a lot of my food. He is a lot bigger than Cutie. It has been 7 days and nights for brushing teeth! Zila ate 2 small pieces of my palm fruits! A first. I have never known a cat to like fruit! /// I edged the lawn in only 50 minutes! Sometimes it takes 3 hours. I was fatigued and a bit shaky afterward. I put a windsock on my car! It's the flag! It took awhile to find every thing I needed and to figure it out. I clamped it onto the top of the aerial with a tiny "clamp" and a bolt and washers and nut. A few weeks ago prior the disaster, I found a bunch of small windsocks that father had bought some years ago. I found them upstairs. Some people have small flags on or in their car, or a copy of a flag on a sheet of paper on the window. Then I remembered the windsocks. So I found them tonight and looked at them. I was very disappointed when I found that they are a bunch of other nations but there are a few that are the flag of the United States. Windsock on my car at miles 107,313. I then went out and tested it. It makes some noise with the six streamers flapping. I wonder if anyone else has a flag windsock on their car! I then worked on one of the new brooms: I drilled and put a bolt through. After only the second time that I had used it (last night), the stupid thing fell apart and would not stay tight while I was sweeping. Then I got to working on my edger. I drilled and put new smaller (but in a better way than the original bolts) bolts in to hold the shield tight. It has never stayed tight! It took me 17 years to get this done! But I only worked until about midnight. I also filed off the 4 sharp edges that were on my new key. The stupid people! Time and time again (as with the broom and the key and the edger), I buy something and then need to alter it to make it the way it should have been made! I had recovered from edging after I had eaten the palm fruits, then I did very very well. Better than I have done for a long long time. One after the other I had gotten A number of important things done without losing energy! And although I came close to defeat on all of them except the key, I succeeded on all of them! Worked 3.5.
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On the way home with the windsock, It was warm but gusty. Once in awhile when the wind would blow a certain way, I would not hear the windsock and I would think; did it blow away? Then I would look to see if it was there. When I had the trailer door open at one point, Cutie went into my trailer and then the door closed! I was busy for a little while, then when I opened the door, she was calmly standing there at the door waiting for it to open. I do not know what she did inside. /// I now have $19 (apple fruit sauce "Food 4 Less"). After getting to the house today, I saw that the windsock is not holding up. The junky thing. The steamers are beginning to shred, and this is only the first day of going in my car! (On the way to the house, I get up to 55 miles per hour.) Worked 1.5.
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Cutie is now tubby! Getting slightly dizzy again, --- I need something more than what I am getting! This happens late at night prior I start eating after I get home. /// The plant that I bought for mother seems to be dying! So I repotted it in a much larger pot. Worked 2.0.
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Cutie came scratching at my door last night and tonight, much more tonight, after I had gone inside for the night. {Why didn't I bring her in as mine?! I wonder if this is partly why I never had a girlfriend: She was there, wanting to be with me, but I did not let her in. Makes me angry: She was there, asking to be let in to be with me, and I did not let her in. But I thought I had enough cats as it was, and being very poor... And I don't accept things easily. It was a long time until I decided that I wanted Puddypie, and I lost him while I was making up my mind...} She seems to be getting very fond of me. Which makes me wonder if she might want to live with me. But I have 3 cats now. {Only 3 cats!} Both Zila and Alay likes the orange bread, Zila ate more than ever! / Strange dream. / The show "Enterprise" is supposed to be on tonight. I know that it is going to be a lousy show. Not only that, but prior "Star Trek: Voyager" came on, I knew that it was going to be a lousy show. These people do not know how to make a good show. To begin with, they have the wrong ship design for the era! And I know for a certainty that it is going to be the same alien junk that they've done in the past. / And yes, it is a lousy show, but like Voyager, I like the beginning music. {-The only thing good with these shows.} Actually, it is one of my favorite songs. I found the show to be very skippy and lackluster. I am surprised to find that I got along on only eating cake tonight, but I was some "down" for awhile. Afterward, I got to working on the wooden cabinet that had another cabinet inside it, a tool cabinet, that I found by the dumpster. I put 19 screw in it. Worked 2.0.
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On my way home, I saw a old gray Chevy truck go by that had a large flag behind the cab, the largest one I've seen! Then I saw someone going through red lights and apparently looking for someone. It was some one in a metallic (tan) Chevy truck of course! {There was a while when I noticed that the rudest people on the streets were people getting around in metallic colored Chevy trucks.} I let Cutie in my trailer again and she did a lot of looking around! She kept going to the food bowl but she did not eat any. Neck hurting, feeling strange, can't hardly do anything. Neck hurts a lot, I pounded on it with hammer. /// I ran out of chocolate again. I got going late and went to "Home Depot" and to my surprise, found a large selection of hand clippers. One was plastic, one had an interesting spring, one had a rotating handle! But I thought it was too strange and not a secure grip to hold on to. So I picked out what I thought was the best one and bought it. --"Fiskars" "Bypass Pruner" 5/8" 9109. And I bought plumber's metal strapping tape. But only 10'. c997 and c197. I now have $6. I wiped off the "cabinet", which now is only a shelf unit on wheels, and later I took it upstairs. A sting of my skull plates in right rear part of my head. I now have $56 (paid). Worked 2.0.
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Again tonight on my way home I saw another Chevy truck (not as old) with a large flag behind the cab (this one was set up in the center). I now have $33 ("Fry's" tortillas, chocolate, lettuce, carrot roots, and I needed to buy another "TV Guide" -- actually 2 of them; "Terror Hits Home". (It has taken these people 2 weeks to do anything about the attacks.)) / I dreamed that I had gone to work earlier and then came home as I do and I noticed only 2 things that were different. One was my rug or blanket (I do not have any) that was in front of my front door, was wrinkled up some. I came in and went to bed. (That's unheard of.) Then I woke the next day and noticed that the breeze was blowing my certain (I don't have any) in toward the inside through my front right corner window (I don't have one). So I got up to find that someone had opened my window and had left it open and there was a bunch of my papers half way out the window. I also saw that the front section of my trailer had been cleared out in the middle. I had a lot of my papers and stacks of newspapers there (I don't have that much). The middle had been cleared out all the way down to the floor so that I could see the carpet! It must have happened when I was gone at work, but my trailer was locked when I got home, I think. I started wondering a bunch of things. I wondered who did this? What did I lose? How did they get in and how did they leave my trailer locked up? And how was I going to keep them from coming and doing it again? I wondered if mother had her cleaning woman come and sneak in and "clean up". I also wondered that if they did such an expert job as to leave my trailer locked up as if no one had gotten in, then why were they so sloppy as to leave the window open? They could not have gotten into my trailer through the window, but who ever it was apparently used the window to dump out all of my stuff, then picked it up outside or maybe dumped it into a truck. / I now have $32 (library). On the way to the house, I am getting dizzy. Also I saw another truck with large flag. This one was strapped to the rear gate. I saw "Pasadena" for the first time and it gave me an idea for how to do the first part of my show; "Trade Secrets: Stocks Like Mine": To start with me older, showing my riches (if I ever have any!) and then to start into telling my story of years ago. Worked 1.5.
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I witnessed a hit and run --- again. I was on my way home, I had made my turn onto 19 Avenue. Then I came slowly to the red light at Hatcher. There was a truck in the right lane that had passed me, I think that it had been behind me on Dunlap, and stayed behind me until I turned onto 19 Avenue. I was in the middle lane. Then along came a guy, I think he was a mexican, in an old Chevette. The car was dark colored and it made a loud puttering sound like an old sports car. He was going along in the right lane on Hatcher. He was going fairly slow, but he kept on going when he got to 19. (he was going west of course). He went through the red light then turned out wide. Then the light went green. So I started increasing my speed (I had not stopped, but the truck had stopped). I came up kind of close behind the car as he swung out in front of me, going across the middle lane and into the left lane. I did not see any lights on the car. I had passed the truck because the truck had passed me and then stopped at the red light. But who ever was in the truck, had started up and passed me, but I was careful to stay behind the car. Then as soon as the car had drifted over into the left lane, he started drifting over again into the middle lane like a large curve. At this point I thought to myself; this guy is out of control. {The crazy stupid drunk mexicans.} He kept on going over to the right and I thought; he's going to hit that truck! And sure enough, he kept drifting, and went into the right lane and hit the truck. The right front corner of the car hit the left rear corner of the truck. The car simply bounced off of the truck. Then he turned off to the right on one of those small streets. The truck didn't hardly slow down, he or she kept on going! I was very low on fuel and did not feel like doing anything, and I thought; if he or she is not stopping, why should I do anything? And what could I do? The truck never did stop, I kept wondering if it would. The man in the car was probably drunk out of his mind. People like him should be in prison. Where was the police? I now have $16 (gasoline for Omni, 334.3 miles on tank. It filled up to 11.939. The gauge was on the empty dot, but I had more than a gallon if it holds 13.0.). {28 miles per gallon.} Worked 1.5.
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On the way home, I again saw another truck with a flag behind the cab, a large one. The largest one I've seen. Alay really likes the tortillas. /// I have not been doing well in my belly recently, so I've been taking more of the "GB-3". Alay really likes the orange bread! Feeling really really bad, mostly in head. What's wrong with me? Then I get myself going and come out to find that the spare that I put on is flat -- the "Firestone". So I put on the tire that had been on there -- the "Triumph I" This is at 107,452 miles. So I went over and put air in the flat, and the tire that I put on, it was very low. And I had checked all my tires. Then I went to the house. Then I watched; "A Bug's Life" (1998). I barely got to the house soon enough to see it. It was amusing, but it has a lot of errors in it about insects, so it was very disappointing. And Kevin came and I got him to watch the beginning music of "Enterprise". He said he liked it. Then later I plugged the "Firestone". (At 107,461.) It was very very difficult, it sounded like I cracked a tooth. But I did it in a very short time, about 4 minutes or less. By far my shortest time. I was trying to do it rapidly enough so that it would not loose much air, but it did. It had a screw in it, so I unscrewed it. Worked 0.0.
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On my way home I encountered a suspicious man in a small dark car. He did not stop along side of me in the left lane at the red light at Greenway, he stopped behind me so that I could not look over and see him. Then he turned off I think to urinate. Then he got going again while I was putting air in my spare. / Puddypie is after Alay now! I checked, and Alay is now about 6 months old. More "bad" news is that this means that Cutie is also about 6 months old. But I have not seen any male cats running around after her. I put the ear stuff into Puddypie's ears again -- third time. /// On the way to the house I encountered a fire "truck", I think from station 33, with lights and siren going, and it had 2 flags on the rear -- one was United States and the other was Arizona! This is what I was wanting many years ago when I did not have a car. Worked 2.0.
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I lowered the windsock tonight as much as I could but so that the bottom would not get into the wheel -- only about 5 or 6". Because I have been concerned that my aerial has been bending too much at 55 miles per hour, which is usually the highest speed that I go. I now have $296 (paid). On my way home, I took a look at station 33, but I guess that they are all asleep. I should go earlier. I think I hear a little more noise from the windsock because it is closer to the window. /// I got going earlier today, it was cloudy and not hot. I went and got the money "order" and then went and paid my rent. So I now have $42. Then I went to "Food 4 Less" for chocolate and apple fruit sauce. I now have $13. (They were totally out of the regular size of the apple fruit sauce.) Then I went to "Office Max" to buy more black pens, and I was over charged. The box was c94 and it came up c99, but I caught it. I now have $12. Then I went home to unload and then headed for the house, stopping at station 33, I talked to a man about the flags. When I got to the house I started working on getting the grass out of the rose "bed", but there was no water! So I put everything away and started working on the water leak problem. I decided to go to "Home Depot" this night for parts. So mother gave me $20. I have no idea what the parts would cost. It seemed like it was a long way over there. There was a man to help me, at first he recommended that I use a special glue to glue the leak. It cost 4 or $5. I did not like that idea, so then he picked out the pipe parts for me that I would need. It turned out to be only 3 parts that cost less than $2! But I noticed that he used a cutter to cut the pipe. So I bought the same sort or cutter. It came to under $13 total. So I returned to the house but along the way I encountered a maniac in a Chrysler truck pulling a small trailer that a round tank set into it. "He" was going high speed and weaving through traffic and at least once he skidded up to a red light. It wouldn't have been as bad if he hadn't have been pulling a trailer. He might jackknife it. He was heading for a wreck. So I called 911 and told a man about it. After I got to the house, I worked on the pipe pieces and cut them to size. (The cutter does not cut straight.) Then I glued it all together and got a lot of the glue on my left hand, on 4 fingers. When I was done I spent awhile washing and scrubbing. While I was scrubbing my hand, I had the show "Scrubs" on the television! I was getting worried, this is nasty stuff. My hand felt strange. It was an ordeal. It took hours for my hand to begin to feel normal again. I had had at least 1 sting in my body and some burping, but I had done fairly well except for my hand. What went wrong??? Worked 4.0.
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By the time I got started going home, I was not feeling well, but I figured that I would start eating after I got home. On the way home I felt like I had a sore back, with a bit of a achiness all through my back. / I had a very bad time of burping. I took the "GB-3" pill and ate the tortillas but it got much worse for awhile. What went wrong??? {Too much chocolate.} Also I put gasoline on an ant colony at the front of my slab. And I kept hearing a cat meowing. At first I ignored it and I wasn't feeling well. But the cat kept on meowing and it might need help. It sounded very distant, I could hardly hear it. But I set out with my flashlight to see if I could find the cat. I went walking south and found it only a few trailers down! It was 2 cats having a fight. So when the one cat saw me, he ran off under a trailer. I stepped closer and stood there in a menacing way and the other cat, a larger black cat, ran under the same trailer. So then the smaller cat, who was probably the one that was meowing, and probably did not want a fight, ran out onto the street and stopped. He had not run far enough to get away from the larger black cat, so I started walking toward him to get him to run away. He did run, but there went the larger black cat after him. The black one caught him and attacked him and they were rolling around fighting. I could not see where they had gone, but I came running and kicked the black cat with my left shoe. They then split and ran off. /// It was breezy again today. I was working on the pipe again today, and I saw Missus Lakin and talked to her for the first time since they returned. I told her about my sell, and she thought that I sold because I had to have the money. I was also talking to Kevin about the pipe. And I asked him if he was patriotic. At first he did not want to answer, {he doesn't like such bothersome things as fighting for what you believe} so then I asked him again later and he said yes {in a pig's eye!}. So I asked him if he had any desire to put a flag on his truck and I told him that a few minutes earlier I had come upon a stand near home where they were selling flags (and shirts). (The guy at the stand saw my windsock and said that he had never seen any thing like it and said that it was "really cool". He said that twice. They had car flags for $15.) When Kevin hesitated, I then said; "You are either with us, or you are with the terrorists!" (That would make a great car sticker.) {This is the way I tend to be -- In your face -- "Are you white or are you black? Are you with us, or against us? Are you good, or are you evil?" It's a shame that I come from such a weak family. But it could have been much worse...} He then hurriedly went over and got one of mother's flags that I did not know she had. Then I went over to that same "Home Depot" again to get help with the pipe. I waited and waited, but this time there was no one to help, so I took off. I got to the house barely soon enough to see "Enterprise". It was very lame. Worked 2.0.
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/// I stopped at the flag stand again today. I did some checking to see if and how the car flags would fit on my car. The only one that would fit was the hood flag, but not on the hood, on the top edge of the rear hatch. 2 of them would be great there. But I only had $12. I said to the man that I had wanted to buy 3 of them and that I thought they were priced too high and that 3 of them would be $45. And he said in a humorous way; that 3 times 15 IS 45 -- that's correct. Then I said to him that I thought that they probably shouldn't be any higher than $8. And he said something like; "You know, it seems that way, doesn't it, but..." {I wish I could travel into the past and tell myself not to waste my time with stupid things and stupid people. And those lousy flags bust off after a few weeks.} So then I took off for "Home Depot". I bought some neat gloves and 2 pipe parts but could not find the part that I was looking for for the pipe. They were out of it. After I had gone to the third "Home Depot", I found the part, but bought it in metal instead of plastic. The price was more than $1.50 higher but it should be much better quality. The price was c419, but after waiting in line awhile, it came up at a higher price, more than $1 more. So I pointed that out, so she called plumbing. Then she started taking the people that were behind me. So I waited, and waited. I was getting irritated. {I wish I had not wasted my life. But what could I have done? But everyday life is such a waste.} So then I got my part and went to the next check out. And again the woman there was going to call plumbing, so I said, no, no, come over here. She came and I showed her the parts and the prices. She was not convinced and she was going to call someone, and then I said that she should get the manager. A woman came, and she said that she would go with the c419 price and I told her what irritated me. So I then came out to rush over to the house. I started the Omni, went a foot or two, and the motor quit. I thought that I might have stalled it with the clutch. I cranked and cranked, but it would not start. So I went in and asked the same woman, the third one, if the pay phone out side was c50. She said that I could use the courtesy phone inside! So I called mother and then "AAA". The phone got disconnected 3 times! It took a much longer time because of it. And most of the time a man was pacing around like a fly waiting to use the phone that I was using. At "AAA", I first was talking to a woman, then a man. We were almost finished (with the woman) when it was disconnected. Then with the man, he said that to go from Camelback and Grand, to 19 Avenue and bell, would cost me $40! And I only had $12. So I decided to have it taken to the house. Then I went to the rest room and then walked out and I saw the car carrier go by in front of me. He stopped and I walked over and he asked if I had called "AAA". I said yes and pointed to my car. When he was loading up my car, I said to him that they usually have trouble figuring out where to hook on at the rear. He then snapped at me with; "I've been doing this for 15 years, guy." Then he bragged that he had once hauled a "$43,000 Mercedes." This guy did switch off my ignition but he did not set my parking brake. It was a bumpy ride across Camelback and we talked a bit. And It did give me the chance to see my windsock going at speed. It seemed like a crazy hyper flame or something like that. When we got to the house, he commented how easy it was to push my car, {That's my Omni!} and I said; But I wouldn't want to push it all that ways. Then I talked to mother and she said that she would let me take her car (grudgingly), so that I could take my things home and then return and leave the car there and then ride my substitute bike home and then call and talk to Marty at "The Motor Car" the next day to see what he says. So then I got my bike out and brushed off the dust and put the new seat on it and pumped up the tires. And the bike was ready to go. Then I looked over my car and checked a few things and I disconnected the fuel hose at the carburetor and cranked the motor and it started! So then I went and talked to mother again. It did not make sense to leave my car there so I decided to go home in my car and hope that I don't get stranded again. This is at miles 107,580. I now have $32. (paid). {I did not lose my car. But the point is coming when I do.} Worked 2.5.
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My car ran "perfectly" on the way home and on my way to the library and to "The Motor Car" Friday {today} to have a talk with Marty about my car. He did not have any ideas except that he would see if he could call about a carburetor Monday. I told him that I was not going to pay him $100 for him to tell me that I have something wrong with my carburetor because I know that I have a bad carburetor! / Apple fruits -- 2 (I got sick to my stomach afterward.) Worked 2.5.
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It has been breezy for some days, and tonight, starting on my way home from the house, rolled up my window because it's cold out! (But not cold at home.) I now have $20. ("Fry's", chocolate and carrot roots.) As I was on my way home from the house, I heard a slight noise from the end of my clutch cable, so I decided to take a look at it after I got home. But that wasn't soon enough! When I started home from "Fry's", I heard and felt the cable busting! Again??????? This is a "NAPA" cable!!! This should not be happening to me! How do I get a cable that's not a piece of junk??? Where do I get one? I have been to "Checker", "Autozone", "Pep Boys" and "NAPA"! So then I "limped" home. I'm stuck at home again, and this time with very little money. I looked for my "NAPA" clutch cable receipt, but could not find it. I found the "NAPA" receipts for the radiator cap and the fuel port cap, but not the cable. What's wrong with me? I was very irritated. At this point, I do not know what I paid for it or when I bought it. /// Feeling really bad, can't do anything, not one more word in this record "book" (I have been behind for days). Then I fell asleep again and had some more dreams. At first I was dreaming when I was awake. Then I got up and took my shower. So then I got ready and carried my bike out and brushed off the dust. Then I walked my bike to "Checker" to check on the cable. They had one in the large blue box at $41, and the one in the card envelope "Beck/Arnley Worldparts" 093-0562 made in Italy at c2,749. I decided to buy this one but I did not have enough money. I called mother and talked to her. She offered to use her credit card over the phone, but they would not allow that. So I continued to walk my bike over to the air supply at 19 Avenue and Bell. Aired up my tires, and rode home. I got out my collector coins that I had been saving, looked through them, and picked out most of them and put them in my wallet. Then I got out the chocolate and rode over to "Fry's". At this point, on my way to "Fry's", the metal piece that I had my rear flasher light mounted to, kept bending down, and the fender was bouncing against it. {Cheapo parts.} So to keep my light from falling off, I bended it until it busted off and I put it in one of the panniers. I refunded the chocolate. I now have $27 plus coins. I then rode to "Checker" and bought the cable. I had to wait awhile. And I had asked the man twice to wipe off the dust that was on the package, and when I came to buy it, he had not. It came to c2,972. I now have $0! By the time I had gotten home with the cable, it was dark. But rather than wait for daylight, I got out my flashlights. It was more difficult for me somehow putting in the new cable than it was last time. I got it done at miles 107,636. I had found a piece of wood and cut it with my coping saw and put it under the clutch bar to make it easier for me. After I got it done, I decided to stay home and give mother a rest from me. It was to late, there was no point in going that I could see. (Although I guess I missed my show; "Racing Mercedes".) Earlier, after I had let the cats out, both Zila and Alay were too frightened to stay out, and Puddypie had promptly attacked a kitten, I think it was Cutie, so I put them all in and kept them in the rest of the night. I got to thinking what else I could do. I thought about getting out the ladder and getting up on the roof and seeing if I could stop the rattle, but the thought of it seemed too much for me. Then I got the idea; I wonder if I could make a wrench made of wood for my Omni clutch cable nut 1"? I had already used my coping saw to cut the one piece of wood, and I am very much in need of a lightweight 1" wrench that I could carry with me all the time and my cable busts on me suddenly and often. And I don't want to carry a heavy metal 1" wrench with me all the time. So I wondered if I could make one out of wood. I knew I wasn't going to find a piece of wood outside, so I went looking inside. I went inside and looked around, found a fairly good piece of wood that had lamination on one side, it has been laying on the floor of my trailer in the middle room for years. I thought; if I don't use it for this, what am I going to use it for? Outside (in the dark), I had put pencil lines on it, and then was wondering how I was going to do the cutting on it. The problem was that I could not get set up any where where I had both light and a solid thing to work on. It took me awhile to conclude that I had to move inside and do the work in there. It took some doing to get set up inside, I put a piece of paper bag over my cooler box as a work bench. It took hours of cutting with my coping saw to cut out the basic design. At one point, I wondered what hot the blade might be after I had been cutting, so I for a second, touched the blade with 2 fingers. The first thing I noticed was that I heard a sizzle, then I felt the pain. That blade was as hot as a stove!! Then the pain was gone, then it came again but it did not turn out to be a bad burn. I had also had gotten out my drill from the Jeep and had taken off the nut again so that I could precisely size the end to fit the nut. Then I went out and tried out my new wrench, but it needs a lot of finishing work and it is somewhat too large. It's name: "OMNI CLUTCH CABLE WRENCH 1"." Worked 0.0.
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I now have $40 (paid). /// I now have $17 ("Trader Joe's"). Went to "Home Depot" again. I exchanged the short metal fitting which had a hole in it! For another one exactly the same and I bought the longer plastic one (mother repaid). "Home Depot" again, more pipe pieces. Worked 3.0.
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/// I came out to find that the rear left tire is going flat again, so I took the wheel off again and put on the "Firestone" spare at miles 107,695. "Home Depot" again! Will I ever get this pipe job done? {It's a pipe dream.} More pipe pieces. And I bought the mini razor holder that I keep seeing there. I now have $16. Worked 2.0.
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/// I went to the library and found that I could not find my print box card. So I bought another one and put my name on it. I now have $15. I do not know what happened to my card, it is a mystery. I now have $13 (gasoline). I now have $108 (paid). Worked 0.5.
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All 3 of my cats pooped outside in the dirt! First Alay, then Zila, then Puddypie. Was it this night? /// Got very cold. I heard something today that sounded something like a cat vomiting. I looked around and could not see that it was any of my cats. Then I looked outside out my window, and saw going by in front of my door, a family of chickens! I called Puddypie and Zila, but only Puddypie came. I was almost ready to go, so one by one, I carried my cats out to see the chickens. First Puddypie, then Zila, then Alay. I don't think Zila or Alay saw them, they were frightened to be out in the daylight. But when I kept saying; "Chicken", I think Puddypie was thinking that I had some chicken to eat. {But did he know that chickens taste like chicken?} After getting to the house and working on the pipe again, I thought I had it all done --- again! And mother came out to see my design that I had made. But there were 3 leaks! So then I headed to "Home Depot" again for some more pipe parts. But first I went to "Trader Joe's" and bought 3 cakes and 3 boxes of "Clif" bars. (They did not call me!) {I was told I would be called...} So I now have $63. "Home Depot", pipe parts and 2 drill bits. I now have $48. (gasoline at only $1.21. 12.307 gallons!) I have only $46. Worked 2.0.
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/// I went to "Safeway" looking for some more apple fruits, but the price was high. But I bought some boxes of "Rice a Roni" -- first ever (at c149 each). I now have $37. Worked 1.5.
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I went to "Fry's" to buy more carrot roots, and bought them, and saw that "Fry's" has the same "Rice a Roni" at c10 less per box. I now have $33. /// Cooler on. I checked my tire that has been in the trunk, it's not holding air. Then I went to the office to complain again about lot 84, their sewage is leaking again, but the door was locked with the sign saying "Open" and there was no response at the other door. {What a shoddy manager.} Then I went to "Discount Tire" to have my tire checked out. He said it was a goner because of a bulge. I think the bulge is where I had put the plug in. Then I went to "Walmart" and bought 4 bottles of drain opener. Only c197 each. Eric did not have my drains done the correct way! I now have $24. I now have $12 ("Pets Mart" cat food). I then went home to unload. Then I went to that Copper State Bolt and Nut place asking about a drill bit holder. They did not have what I was looking for {of course not, places usually don't}, but they directed me to another place. So I came out and found myself heading in that direction because I had to cross the freeway, so I decided to go there and at this point, it was on the way to the house. So I rushed there and found the place. There was some things that I had never seen and did not know what they were to be used for! If I had had more money, I would have bought some things. But I did buy 1 thing: A piece drill bit rotary rasp set. "Harbor Freight Tools". I now have $7. Then I rushed to the house to find that the irrigation is coming in! So I couldn't get my wheels out of the horse barn. I now have $57 (paid). Worked 0.0.
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I came home to find that one of the cats had vomited out a piece of a length of one of my shoe laces on the floor (the rug). It was probably Zila. /// I checked the tire again today, and it's not holding pressure. Then I went to the office and found Sharri in! So I complained about lot 84 about the sewer and I said to her that if or when lot 84 moves out, that she should be there to see that they don't do anything to me. Then I went and filled up the tire with air, so that if I needed a spare, I would have one, if only for a short time. Then I went to "Home Depot" again and bought some more mini razor blade holders (5 -- 1 pink, 2 yellow, 2 green. I gave a green one to mother) and 3 different door hanger rollers for my sliding door. I now have $40. Worked on tires. Did not have time to work on my wrench. I got the skinny tires that are on my wheels, out of the horse barn and washed them off. I hope to sell them to "Discount" which is where I bought them around a year and a half ago, because they are to small for my car. And I got my new tires down from up stairs. After all this time, they are clean! I went home with 4 tires on my car, and 5 tires in my car! Worked 0.5.
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/// I went to "Discount" again. I asked how much would it cost me to buy a tire like one of the skinny tires. The guy said $20 - $21. But then when I talked to the manager, he would not buy them from me. I was very disappointed, but what can I do? So I had them take the bad tire off and dispose of it, and to take off both skinny tires off the wheels and to put on my new tires on 2 of the wheels and balance. And the deal was this for $20. And the manager gave me the name of a place that might want to buy the skinny tires. Last night mother noticed that one new tire was taller than the other. They are supposed to be exactly the same. I asked the manager about this, and he said that it should not be a problem. After they were done, I noticed that they had damaged the seal edge of at least 1 of the skinny tires, and the stem was whacked off of the wheel that now has no tire on it. I asked about it and a guy said that the seal should be okay, and that they whack off the stem intentionally! (This means that when I have a tire put on it, I must buy a new stem.) So he gave me 4 new stems. So I now have $20. I wish that I had checked the pressure of the skinny tires, I forgot. I wonder if they held pressure. I would have liked to have known. So then I went home to wash and then went to "Home Depot" again, looking for a roller to fit my door. They did not seem to have one, but a man found spacers for me, so I bought it. I continue to have $20. (c43+ = c46). Then I raced over to the Camelback "Home Depot" to see if they might have it. They did not. So then I raced to the house and got there barely soon enough to see "Enterprise" (I am loosing more interest in this show.) Later I worked on my wheels. I put my new "Michelin" tires; "Roadhandler T Plus" P175/70R13 82T M+S "Radial XSE", on the front. (After all this time, I got the tires on my car!) And I put the tires that had been on the front; "Michelin" "Weatherwise" P175/70R13 82S Radial M+S, on the rear. Now, for the first time, I have "Michelins" on all 4 wheels! I took off the "Steel Belted Radial" P175/80R13 off the right rear, and put it in the horse barn as a second spare. And I took off the "Firestone" "F-560" 175/70R13 off the left rear, and I an keeping it as my first spare. (But I should not need a spare for a long time.) This at miles 107,904. And after I was all done, mother came along acting like she knew something about wheels, and said to me that I should check my wheels in about 2 days. I told her that she was treating me like I was a little baby and that I have been doing this for many years, not only with the Omni, but also the Jeep. She makes me angry. Worked 0.0.
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On the way home, I found a car window flag, and close to home, I found a screwdriver. After getting home, I was surprised to see that the large paper stickers that were on the new tires are near totally gone after only the 9 miles going home. /// Today, I went trying to sell the skinny tires. No luck. / {For more than 5 hours--} Having a lot of burping trouble, can't do anything else. What went wrong? Work 1.5.
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/// The good news is that Zila is in a Winddown and Bioject, my best stock, is now at 586% of the money. And in the library, there was an older man, probably around my age, but his face was much worse than mine. He was sitting at one of the computers. There were two young women sitting at the computers next to him. He was talking to the one sitting next to him while I was waiting for a computer that happened to be hers. At first I thought that they were together. Then I heard him say "17". (I think he must have asked her her age and she said 17.) Then he said; "17 was the best years of my life, 17 to 21." Then he named a bunch of cars that he had and 2 motorcycles and something about $500 and being in jail or not in jail. He told her that this was the best time of her life. Then he said to her something like; "Do yourself a favor, put that down and go in and stand in front of the mirror and kiss yourself." And he said that she was very pretty. And he wanted to touch her hair. And he told her that he wanted to hug her but wouldn't. Then the library woman came over and told him that she had a limited time on the computer. And then he spent a little while saying goodbye to her. Then he came later and gave her eye shades. He had a difficult time leaving her. He was probably drunk, but he was saying out loud what most men feel but don't say. {I could very much relate to what he was saying then, I have felt it many times. And much more now with great despair having lost my chance with any such woman. My best years by far, for it was all down hill from then, was 1969 to '71. I was 12 to 15. I had my insects, my toy cars, Matchbox and Hot Wheels, they were new and exciting. I had Star Trek, it was new and seemingly wonderful. There seemed to be a whole marvelous world that lay ahead for me. But I never had a chance at having girlfriends or owning cars or having my own business. I was too young for those things then. But later my life had gone too terribly wrong, and there was no one to help. My family were too busy with their own lives and thought of themselves as smarter than me and knowing better than I did as to what I needed, or didn't need. I was forever lost in a life of limbo, never being able to control what was happening to me, and not knowing that my life was doomed. Some people had it worse, but not many, in a country of freedom and prosperity. My situation would have made more sense if I had lived in a poor starving country, but this was "The Land of Plenty" where people could do what they want, and make money. I could never "get on my feet", could never make money, could never get a girlfriend or any woman who really wanted me, whether I wanted her or not. And so I "starved" from lack of a woman in my life.} Worked 2.5.
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/// I did not do well all day and all night. My back was sore and achy all the time. I was trying to get myself going, and but I was too afraid to eat the cake. I could not get to my wrench. I now have $70 (paid). Worked 2.0.
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I now have $44 ("Fry's" I went to get some "Lava" soap bars and some chocolate and some tortillas. When I last checked, they had 3 "Lava" bars remaining, wouldn't you know they were out when I came to buy some. Whenever I see something that I want and don't buy it then, usually when I come to buy it, it's gone. "Lava" was at c119. I got 6 "chocolate", but he only charged me for 5, and 9 "tortillas"). / I have gotten really bad now! I was documenting after the carrot roots, and then I tried to go to bed, I had drank some water and then I was going to lay down, but then I couldn't. I had a very severe time. I tried to burp as much I could and I ate only a bit of the apple fruit sauce. I tried to phone mother over and over again, but there was no answer. I was thinking of calling 911, but didn't. What went wrong??? What's wrong with me??? {-The chocolate!} This is very difficult because if it is the way I am eating or something that I'm eating, then it does not show it's self as a problem until hours after I've eaten. {-This is what made it so very difficult to see that it was the chocolate, because there is no sign of any problem until hours later. I've struggled with it for many years, and to this day. And doctors know nothing about it!} /// A bowl of mother's stew. Worked 3.5.
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I now have $41 (mower gasoline). The nights have become very mild! Hardly any cold. /// 2 bowls of mother's stew. Worked 6.0!
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Outside tonight, Alay got up on one of the bricks!!! A first for her! I don't know how she did it. She did not stay up long. /// I had to rush out and buy oil for mower so that I could mow the lawn! ("Checker" c149!) I now have $39. Worked 5.0.
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New -- I found some clothes from out of the garbage. /// Worked 2.0.
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On the phone with a "Schwab" guy (It's been a long time) "Ken", I pulled out more whiskers on the left. Now, the right and left is mostly equal. Why is that? If "left" is ahead, then why are the whiskers behind on the left?? Cutie farts when I get to petting her! I have suspected for some time. Now I know for sure. {That might be a reason not to bring her in!} She is very tubby now, so I think that she must be getting plenty of food elsewhere. There is never a sound when she farts, I only smell it. As much as she likes my food that I put out for her, I think she loves me more than the food. And I think this is mostly why she comes anymore. {At least I had someone to love me, my cats! No one else did.} /// Bad news again, mostly, with my stocks. I now have $38 (library). Bioject went down to only 491%! Is this a "Windup" that then dropped? This is the first that I have named this formation. I got the "new" flag put up, mounted on the front of the balcony. With 3 long screws plus a fourth because the flag handle is smaller than the mount. It was very difficult drilling the holes. The fourth one much more so. I got my wrench mostly done tonight! I did fairly well today and tonight, I was able to keep going. But I am trying to figure out how to put my print into it. While I was working, or trying to work on my wrench, mother was having trouble with the hinges on a small drawer box. So I took the time to do the hinges for her. Worked 1.5.
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I now have $24 (Omni gasoline). Cutie ate some of my tortillas! And she was then play fighting with my hand and biting. /// Zila likes my apple fruit sauce! Worked 2.0.
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On the way home, I stopped at "Fry's" and bought 1 bar of "Lava" soap. I now have $23. Then I came out and the motor would not start! I was stuck again! (At "Fry's".) I thought about calling "AAA", but I did not want to do that, I would be using up one of my "towings" and it was a very short distance. I thought about pushing my car home. (Although it was only about a mile, this being Saturday night {with the crazies on the streets who tend to like to bother me when I'm going in my car!}, it would not be a good idea, and it would be very difficult.) I wondered how many more times is this going to happen to me, and that I can't keep calling "AAA". I was thinking; it must be one small thing that is keeping the motor from starting. So I started looking around under the hood. It seemed that disconnecting the fuel pipe worked the one night, so I did that. Gasoline got on my hands and dripped on the hot motor and sizzled. I'm glad that there was no fire, that was not a good idea. I did not think of fire. So I did not crank it with it disconnected (that would be asking for trouble). So I put it together again. I got to wondering about the choke, and discovered that the flaps were stuck open, So I clamped my plier on it to keep it closed, and the motor started! then I found a way to clamp my plier on it so that I could get the assembly on and close the hood. And I got myself home! And it only took me around 15 minutes to get my car going again! /// I have not done well today. I feel tired and wiped out, so I stayed in and did not get ready and come out. Maybe I've been pushing myself too much this week. I hope that Cutie will be okay when she finds that I did not "come home" tonight. Worked 0.0.
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I took the flea collar off of Zila. I took the flea collar off of Puddypie some time ago when I last put the medicine in his ears. So now, no flea collars. /// I keep hoping that things will get better, that my life will get better, and the lives of Puddypie and Zila and Alay. I wish that Alay could at least walk without falling over. Lord, she doesn't need to be perfect, she doesn't need to be able to run or jump or climb, if only she could walk without falling over. There is now only 64 days until the end. I hope next year will be much better for me (and my cats). I live in fear that I will eat a little bit of something that will be bad for me. Years ago, I could eat any amount of any food in any combination, I could stuff myself and not have any serious problem. It is different now! Now I can have trouble eating only a small amount of something. I wish my life was better. It seems that when I gain one thing, I lose something else. I am able to think much better than I could years ago, but now I have trouble eating. Years ago, I would be afraid walking into a room full of people, but now I fear that something might go very wrong inside my body after I eat something. I've been waiting such a long time for my life to get better, I hope it will be soon! I hope the stock market starts on it's way up so that I can show what I can do. But there is at least 2 stocks that I want to buy first. 64 days until the end. I need a good carburator for my car, and a good clutch cable. Then my car should be flawless except for small things. And my car needs new upholstery, and it needs to be painted. It's rusting! I need some money! I got the Omni started today. Then I went straight to Marty's. He was talking about a lack of fuel. And he seemed busy. So I took off (it started again) and headed for the house. On the way I saw a burned up small car. Then I thought about "Autozone", so I turned around and stopped there and bought a fuel filter. So I now have $20. "Deutsch" "FF330". Later I put the fuel filter. At miles 108,144. It was somewhat clogged! I'm not feeling well tonight. I now have $335 (paid). Worked 1.0.
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On the way home, it seemed that the Omni goes better with better acceleration, although it was difficult to get it going at first; The high idle does not work. After getting in my trailer for the night (Cutie did not seem to have missed me last night) I called Puddypie to me, I said; "Come here Puddypie". Zila started to come until she heard the name Puddypie, then she stopped! And Puddypie came and I took off his harness. Then I said; "Come here Zila". And she came and I took off her harness. My cats are such sweetiepies! / Why do I feel so bad? What did I do wrong? I hammered my head: Feeling better. Then I pressed on my head with my fingers in certain spots, and then I was feeling much better. /// I now have $81 (rent money order). Then I went to pay the rent, and the office was closed -- again. But the sign was true this time, it said "closed". But I went around to the other door and Sharri came out around so that I could get my rent paid. {Not that I wanted to.} Then I went to Marty's again, with no luck except that I did talk to him about my choke. I now have $52 (gas bill). As I was walking out of "Bashas", I started thinking that I should be more open minded. So I walked in again and looked over the fruit and found pear fruits at only c69 per pound. (They are c99 at "Fry's".) I had to go out again to get my calculator and come in again. So then I bought a bunch - 17.59 pounds. 4 different kinds of pear fruits. I had figured; c1,212, it came to 1 penny more. So I now have $40. I worked on my car a bit. I could not adjust the choke bolt, but could not get the car to start when "cold." So I started working on another bolt, and I could not get any screw driver to it!!! The stupid way they make these
things! So I got my plier and turned it bit by bit until the car would start. Then I headed home to see if this was going to work. It didn't! The motor was revved up too high! It was making me crazy. I was getting very irritated by the time I got home. And I was thinking about my 3 stupid "repair" books that I have for my car, they are mostly useless to me. Worked 0.0.
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Then I started having some bad trouble again with pressure and burping. What went wrong this time!!! What is wrong with me? /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ---- drops 30 and then drops 30, = about 2 small mouthfuls.{Up until this point, I would put; "Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- 2". And I don't know what that means. Unless it is mouthfuls. And so I have not included the chocolate.} How could my problem be constipation when I have what is mostly diarrhea? / I unscrewed the bolt so to return the idle to the way it was. (It did start being cold.) Then I went to Marty again, but he really did not help me with my choke problem. I did not do well tonight. Feeling bad some of the time and barely able to walk most of the time. I only got a bit done on the wrench. The other night my windshield board tore in half.Worked 0.0.
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/// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk --- drops 35 then 30. Worked 1.5.
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/ I found my Nine Shooter rubber band shooter (----- unfinished) ! And I looked it over. It took me awhile to begin to figure out what I had in mind for it. I made it nine years ago! And haven't finished it yet! Maybe I can finish it soon, after my wrench. Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk --- drops 40 then 10 -- too much. I now have $24 ("Food 4 Less" apple fruit sauce and loaf bread - 3 loaves). Worked 0.0.
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Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk --- drops 10 then 11. {In the shower-} I pulled out more whiskers; above the chin. /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk --- drops 30 then 10. I rushed to "Home Depot", but they have no tiny drill bits. So then I rushed to "Six Points", but they were closed! And will be closed tomorrow. I hate weekends! I have been doing better since I started eating "The Swiss Colony" "cake". But I would not call it cake because it is mostly sugar. Mother lied to me about the arrival of "The Swiss Colony" stuff. It has been getting me going when I otherwise would not. Worked 2.5.
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I held Alay for a good long time, but when I went to set her down, she leaped out of my arms! I could not catch her. From up high, she went down, it seemed, neck first. But I think she barely missed the concrete slab and hit the dirt. Again, she seems to be okay! I hope she learned not to do that again. It is a strange night: It is not cold at all. It is cloudy with a (full?) moon. /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ---- drops 25 then 10. / drops 25. On the way to the house, I saw a white tower vehicle with a wooden flag on it showing from the rear. It was out of state (I think New Mexico). It had 5 red and white stakes as the strips and 1 large white star. Then later when I was getting ready to do some trimming, I saw a stealth bomber fly over the house! Then it came again and I took 2 photographs of it. I was surprised that it sounded like any other jet liner, but a bit louder! A sting in body, mostly right side. Then after doing some trimming, I could not do anything except mope around until I ate the cake, then it was too late and I needed to go home! But I did call Pete, and he was watching baseball! And he sounded much more hospitable. He acted like he actually wanted to talk to me, but he wanted to see the game. Worked 2.5.
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It is great tonight, cool and breezy. I had the cats out for about an hour and a half, then it started raining. (For the first time, I put Zila over around the shed slab, with the leash hooked.) /// It is raining! Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk --- drops 25 and 10 then 10. I got a late start again! And I rushed to "Home Depot", but they had no tiny drill bits. Then I rushed to "Six Points", and brought in my wrench {the one I'm making} and my drill. I picked out the number 58 drill bit and bought 2 of them (Only c139 each). The bit fits in my drill perfectly! (The bit sticks out only 5 millimeters!) I now have $17. Then I went to the "Mercedes-Benz" dealer to see if I could get some brochures. Did not get anything that I came for. And I was disappointed to hear that the CLK GTR will never be sold in the United States! {-Yeah, like I would ever have the money to buy one!} I sanded my green (dark) round barrel. Then I painted it Chevy Engine Orange -- a stripe around it. {This barrel was stolen from me some years ago. So if anyone sees it... The odd thing is, I painted it so that I would not lose it. There's only one like it in the world.} / I had a bad time again tonight. It started shortly after mother left for "PEO". {-When asked what "PEO" stood for, mother would say that "PEO" stood for "paint everything over".} After getting my barrel painted, I was starting to work on my wrench. Pressure and burping. / I drilled most of the holes in my wrench. Then shortly after mother got home, the problem is gone. Worked 0.0.
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But then the problem flared up again. /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ---- drops 25 then 10. / Not feeling well tonight. I now have $97 (paid). Worked 2.5.
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Having trouble again with the pressure and the burping. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME??? It started not long after I got home. /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk --- drops 25 and 10 then 10 then 10 and 15. / Pooped - liquid! What's is wrong with me? {-Chocolate!} I now have $53 ("APS"). I rushed off to "Six Points" again and I traded the second number 58 drill bit for a number 56. / Then Kevin showed up and I told him my idea for a "Schwab" advertisement. He liked it. And I showed him my "Block Sledge" Prototype and models and we talked about it a bit while "Enterprise" was on. And I showed him my "set" of drill bits that I found and he told me about the ladder that he found and that he finds a lot of things (like me maybe!). Then I got to working on my wrench again and I finished drilling the holes! And I put a coat of spar varnish on it! And on the broom {handle}. I was surprised that I was able to keep going the entire time without "running down"! And I did not need to eat anything sweet! But what is more amazing is that I ate very little and did not eat again for a long time! And I was not hardly urinating either! This is a very rare day and night for me. {All I ate in these 24 hours was the chocolate, 3 slices of bread, and some apple fruit sauce!} Worked 2.0.
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I have decided that the reason that I have not been able to figure things out all of my life so that I could get something done is because I am mentally retarded, but not near as much now as years ago. /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ---- drops 25 then 10 then 10 then 10. Alay likes the new bread much more than Zila does. I went to "Home Depot" again. I now have $37. I did not do well tonight. I was working along and then I started feeling kind of faint. But I was able to get some "Rice A Roni" started cooking. I had gotten another coat on my wrench after I had to sand it some because of grubby ink spots from the newspaper and I was starting to work on the hinges that I had bought for the drill bit cases when the faintness hit me. Worked 0.0.
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/// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ---- drops 25 and 20 and 10 and 7. I now have $36 (library). Not much happening. I checked on mother's stocks for the first time in many months. 3 or 4 of them are near all time highs! I have been having a very difficult time getting myself going these days. I did very well tonight at the house. I spent all my time sanding on the large "coffee" table. Kevin brought it to the house! And I did not notice today that it was gone! Worked 1.0.
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But then I got very, not dizzy, but "dizzyish". The "dizzynessish" got very bad, I think the worst ever. I'm afraid to eat much of anything. It seems that I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't! /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ---- drops 25 and 20 then 20 then 10. I bought a bunch of small stuff at "Home Depot" for at least 4 of my projects. I bought some small paint brushes! (To finish my wrench.) I now have $21. I now have $7. Omni gasoline at c111.9 12.062 gallons. The place was a mad house! 314.2 miles. I couldn't do any more major work on the table because "Home Depot" does not have a large rotary rasp attachment and I could not get one some place else. (I tried.) I think I got my wrench finished. I worked on putting hinges on mother's drill bit case bit after all that work, it came out wrong! I was very disappointed. Drilling holes again?! In that rubbery slippery plastic is the wrong way to go. {The stupid companies don't put hinges on small plastic cases, so at some point, they fall apart.} Worked 0.0.
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Shortly after I got home, when I opened my trailer door and stepped out with Zila, some idiot shot off his gun. This is the closest that it has ever been. It was probably on the other side of the park rear (north) wall. It was very loud. It was so close that I smelled the gun power. I was surprised that Zila didn't hardly flinch. (She happened to be the first one that I let out.) I called the police, but they never came. If it had been any closer, I might have been shot! /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ---- drops 25 and 20 and 20 then 20 then 20. I went to "Food 4 Less" and bought some cans of vegetables for the stew. I now have $3. I put (another) touch up coat on my wrench, I hope that it is finished now. I worked on putting hinges on MY drill bit case, but instead of drilling holes, I used the end of a drill bit on the stove to melt out the holes. It worked much better. I also first redid mother's drill bit case in this way, putting in larger holes in certain spots. I got them both working fairly well, but the bolts are too long! I put in cans of chicken broth, chicken meat, tuna meat, green peas, green beans, and corn, and ate a bowl of this new mother/Gary stew. I now have $53 (paid). Worked 0.0.
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Having some reoccurring pains in left part of chest! And some burping. I wish that I could solve this problem. I with that I could see a good doctor. /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ---- drops 25 then 20 then 20 and 20. I now have $41 (chocolate at only 1.99 at "Albertsons"). I now have $14 (bread "Oatnut" c318 X 3 and apple fruit sauce - 18 at c98 "Food 4 Less"). I now have $3 (litter "Petsmart"). I did another touch-up on my wrench and redid the drill bit case bolts of mine. I tried to do some other things but failed. Such as drill holes in the wall to secure the light for the flag, and screw up hooks in the ceiling to hold my bike. And I was not feeling well. I now have $28 (paid). Worked 0.0.
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/// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk ---- drops 50 and 40. These drops are much smaller than the other. / Chocolate "Hershey's" milk ---- drops 40. I almost got going much earlier today. No cooler {needed} today. I now have $12 (some more things at "Home Depot" -- I go there a lot now). I now have $6 (I bought some very short bolts for mother's drill bit case and a rotary rasp attachment to work on the table - c539 at "Six Points"). Again I got to the house too late! Eric {brother} and I talked and talked about the table and he saw my wrench. I worked a bit on the table. The rotary rasp does not work for 3 reasons: 1, It has a wobble. 2, It is not large enough to reach the wood. 3, It does not take off the wood! I was very disappointed. So I got mother's other sander, a rotary one, and did a bit of sanding. Then I redid the outer of my wrench. I hope this is the last coat! Why is Bioject going down? I now have $26 (paid). Worked 0.0.
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It's a cold night tonight. /// It was a cold night! Chocolate "Hershey's" milk ---- drops (these are very small!) 60 and 40 and 40 and 40 and ? then 30 = 210. It's a terrible struggle for me to get myself going. At least today I did not go to sleep again, I stayed awake. Then when I got going in my car, an idiot on a motorcycle was turning out into the left lane in front of me and I was in the middle lane trying to get over into the left lane -- there was a long line. I put on my turn signal but it was not working (it has not been working recently). I slow way down and did not know what he was doing, I don't think he had a signal on. Then he said; "What the f--- are you doing?" I got somewhat angry at this idiot. The other day some other idiot yelled at me, I guess only because I came out from "Food 4 Less" when the street was clear and went into the left lane and made a U-turn. At the end of my U-turn, he was in the left turn lane when he yelled at me. He called me "A asshole". {Well, excuse me for being alive and coming outside!} I went to "Home Depot" again! I found a very helpful man. And am some sand paper for mother's rotary sander, I bought a sanding disc for my grinder! Now this should be a super sander! Because so far, nothing has worked on the table. So I now have $3. I declare that my wrench is now finished! Although someone put a finger print on it probably sometime Wednesday {today} morning. I worked on the drill bit cases but did not have much success. I cleaned up my grinder, it has been leaking! And then I found that the sand paper I bought for it does not fit! I now have $13. (paid). Worked 0.0 again!
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I'm running out of money!!! I brought my wrench home for the first time since I started working on it. It is a colder night tonight than it was last night. Cutie did not show up. I sealed up the cooler vent. Then after my shower I put on the heat. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk ----drops 70 then 40 and 40 = 150. I now have $10. My turn signal has not been working, so I rushed over to "Checker" and bought a 2 bulb pack - c299. Then I put one in, and the system works. I asked Kevin {brother} if he accidentally touched my wrench and then I showed it to him. I think he was impressed. Worked 2.0.
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/// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk --- drops 70 and 50 and then 40 and 30 = 190. I have now started wearing a fourth pair of socks because I can no longer wear 3 pairs that are thick enough for my lousy shoes. I now have $15. (I refunded the lousy rotary rasp at "Six Points" and bought 3 more bolts for my drill bit case). A busy night! After being sluggish for awhile, I got myself going (not so much to my credit, and I resisted a "Clif" bar). I was watching some shows, and earlier I dug a trench for mother's "sweet peas" and nearly blacked out. But I got going and got away from the television (partly), I had put one of the "Six Points" bolts in my drill bit case. It seems to work. And I worked on the garage and got the counter cleared off and I started cutting new boxes for the drawers. I can't seem to keep up! Worked 3.5.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 80 and 60 and 40 and 20 = 200. BLANK Worked 4.5.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 100 and 40 and 40 = 180. BLANK Worked 1.0.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 90 and 50 then 50 and 50 and 50 = 290! BLANK Worked 2.0.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 100 and 60 and 40 = 200. BLANK Worked 2.5.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 40 and 40 and 40 = 120. - too much. / Chocolate "Hershey's" milk---- drops 50 and 50. BLANK Worked 2.0.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 then 40 = 140. / Chocolate "Hershey's" milk --- drops 50 and 50. BLANK Worked 5.5.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 40 and 40 and 40 = 120. / Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 40. BLANK Worked 1.5.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 and 50 = 150. / Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50. BLANK Worked 1.0.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 and 50 then 50 = 200. BLANK Worked 0.5.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 then 50 = 150. BLANK Worked 2.5.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 and 50 and 50 = 200. BLANK Worked 4.0.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 and 50 then 50 = 200. BLANK Worked 2.0.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 100 and 50 and 50 = 200. / Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 15. BLANK Worked 1.5.
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4 black kittens! Problems with eyes. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk --drops 100 and 50 and 50 then 50 =250. FAILED! / Lit wood in fireplace. Worked 2.5.
DECEMBER 01
Found my brick! /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 then 50 then 50 = 200. BLANK Worked 1.0.
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Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ---- drops 15 and 15 and 15. /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 20 and 30 and 25 then 27 = 102. 2 young idiots in a brown medium "Oldsmobile" sedan (001 ), were trying to get ahead of me from starting up from the right turn lane at a red light on 19 Avenue. I was starting from the right lane. And they succeeded! -- Going full blast, their propeller tire threw a rock at my car and it hit my windshield and put an "X" crack in it at the bottom right corner! This is the first damage to my new Omni windshield since I got it several years ago! The rock is really no one's fault, but they were in the wrong aiming to get ahead of me from the right turn lane! Also, I should not conclude that their car can beat my car: my car has been sluggish for some days now and I have been wondering if my new fuel filter has clogged up. If so, then the junk must be coming from the walls of my fuel tank or from bad gasoline. {And now that crack has gone from the right side of my windshield at the bottom, to almost all the way over to the left side of the windshield.} Worked 2.0.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk --- drops 25 and 25 and 25 and 25 = 100. BLANK Worked 2.0.
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Started working on Accelerator Stick. Raining. I worked on sliding door again and this time I got it mostly the way I wanted: There is no binding now with closing. It now closes better than it opens. I put another set of rollers on it, then took off the first new ones that I had put on. /// Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25 then 25. / Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 then 50 then 50. / I worked on my Accelerator Stick again -- shaving and sanding, but I cut off a bit more off the end and made it too short. Worked 0.0.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 then 45. BLANK Worked 1.0.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 51 and 49 and 50 then 50 then 50 = 250? BLANK Worked 1.0
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I have been giving food and water to the 4 black kittens and their mother for several days. And several days ago I saw that some of the eyes on some of the kittens were matted shut. I figured that that problem would disappear in a few days if it was not a disease that they had with their eyes. But tonight I saw again, that 1 of the kittens had both eyes matted shut. And I was able to get ahold of the kitten, so I decided to bring the kitten in my trailer to wash his/her eyes. The kitten could not see, and it took awhile of washing, but it went fairly well. Then the kitten could see, and was more afraid. The only problem seemed to be that the eyes were matted shut tight. I would think that the mother would clean them! Then I dried the kitten off (the head and forepaws) and took the kitten out, I hated to, and returned the kitten to "home". Then I was able to do the same thing with the other 3 kittens! Two of them are all black and 2 of them were so bad that they could not see. 2 of them could see out of 1 eye and 2 of them have a bit of white on the face. One has white on the face like Puddypie and was the most trouble. One that was all black, which was the last one, did not give me any trouble. The other all black one was the first one. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 and 50 = 150. / Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 =200. Worked 0.5.
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The kittens seem to have the eye problem again! So I cleaned the 2 that have a bit of white on their faces, but could not see or get the other 2. They were more frightened this time: They were shaking more. Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 15 then 15 then 15. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops "50" and "50" and "50". Worked 1.5.
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BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops "50" and "50" and "50" then "50" then "50" = "250". BLANK Worked 1.0.
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"Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25. / Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25 and 25. BLANK /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops "50" and "50" and "50" = "150". / Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25. / A bowl of "my" soup! - It's delicious! {It is very rare for me to "make" food.} I made it with 2 cans of "Swanson" "Roasted Garlic Seasoned Chicken Broth" - 14.5 each, 1 can of "Best Yet" "Green Beans" - 14.25, 2 cans of "Delmonte" "Sweet Peas" - 15.25 each, 2 cans of "Best Yet" "Sweet Corn" - 15.25 each, and some tuna meat - 3 old cans of "Chicken of the Sea" 6.0 each in oil and 1 can of "Bumble Bee" - 6.0 in oil. Worked 2.0.
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Moved the black kitten's bowls over a bit. Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25 and 25. /// Raining. Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops "50" and "50" and "50" then "50" and "50" = "250". BLANK Worked 0.0.
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I found vomit (again) on my bed. Clean bed bottom blanket and sheet. Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- 25. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops "50" and "50" and "50" then "50" = "200". Raining again. Worked 5.5!
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I found vomit again on the floor. What's going on? Zila, I think it was Zila, played with my "pineapple chunks" when I was in the shower after I had told her "No", -- not to bother it, and tore open the package on the floor. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops "50" and "50" and "50" = "150". BLANK Worked 4.5.
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Car would not start again (at "Fry's"). Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25. It is very very cold tonight. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops "50" and 50 and 50 = "150". I changed oil - long over due. Put in 10 - 40 with new "STP" filter. I tried to get the Omni up on ramps (I think Kevin left them) to make it easier for me (I need all the help I can get), but the ramps shot out forward. It was a good thing the ramps did not hit something. I cannot ever seem to change the oil without making a mess! {-It took me 5 hours.} Mother griping at me again about putting up the lights. Strange, very strange; I start cranking the car, punching the accelerator once between every time, and then the motor starts and goes at low idle and does not quit! It kept on going and did not quit! It was as if the car was thanking me for changing the oil. It was very different from the way it has been for a long time! I must punch the pedal a bunch of times and then when it starts, keep it revved up high for a long time to warm it up and then it often quits. Worked 0.5.
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Raining again, but it stopped. It started shortly after I got home. Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25 and 25 then 25. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 and 50 then 50 = 200. As I was putting up the Christmas lights, I had in mind the song; "Abraham, Martin and John" ("The New World of Leonard Nimoy"). Strangely, I was having a yearning for it, but I have not heard it for many years. My car did not start well tonight! Worked 4.0.
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Awhile after I got home, I was standing around, and I decided to see if I could play the song. So I took everything off of the player, and wiped the dust off and found my album and switched on the recorder and the player, but there was a lot of cracking and popping noise. But I played it. And aside from the noise, the song sounds wonderful, it sounds much better than I remember it. This is strange, I never liked it much many years ago, but now it sounds great! The music is great! It is difficult to believe it. I love the song now. Maybe I'm music starved. But I can also relate to the song now. It is a sad song, but in the same song, the music is cheery. Some Great Ones of my own have died young: Boonie and Swankie. I worked on trying to solve the noise problem, but couldn't. But I did determine that the problem is inside the recorder and not with the speaker. Maybe it's some dust in there. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 and 50 = 150. BLANK Worked 2.5.
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/// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 and 50 = 150. / Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25. Something of an ordeal. I got stranded again! Worked 3.0.
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From when I got home, Alay has been acting strangely. All the time she was making a sound and rubbing on the rug, or wining or growling or trying to get out of the cage (after I put her in). I did not get any sleep tonight. It was like a living hell. I phoned mother again and again, but she did not answer. So I decided to return to the house -- with Alay, and show her to mother. So I loaded up the car again and dug out the car cage and went to the house. I switched on the lights and waited quite awhile for mother to wake up. I took a few photographs of Alay in front of the fireplace that had one of my specially built stack of wood for a fire with a short fuse, thinking that this would probably be the last photographs of Alay. But as soon as I had put Alay in the cage and took the cage out, and put the cage in the car, she acted totally normal (except that she would not eat) until I got home again. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 then 50 and then 50 = 150. / Chicken eggs! Scrambled. I talked to mother about her stock -- This time she was receptive to what I had to say! I told that I think that she should probably sell it very soon. She said that she would call Kirk tomorrow about it. Worked 0.0.
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Alay is eating! Alay is getting a drink of water! Alay is eating again. Alay is behind Puddypie and she is not going crazy! /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 and 50 and 50 and 50 = 200. BLANK Worked 4.0.
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Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25 then 25. /// {Dream:} Scientists had created a genetically engineered snake. It had gotten very large and dangerous, so they killed it. I came along to see if I could get a look at it. I looked over and saw a burned out car, it was a large old seventies yank tank sedan, but I think the two left doors were gone. I was looking at it from the rear left. And I saw the body of the snake it was inside the car and about the size of a large bench seat around. When I got there it was 3 something later; 3 hours or 3 days or maybe 3 weeks. They had killed the snake by fire, by burning up a car with the snake inside. The skin of the snake was chard and crackly. Then I saw the snake slowly come to life again! Then they had to battle it again. After some time they killed it again, using a different method. It was much larger at this point. Then it came to life again! And it was about the size of Godzilla at this point. And everyone in the city, we all started running for our lives. There was a woman, she was running in the wrong direction, I grabbed her and got her to run with me in the opposite direction that the monster was going in. Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 50 then 50 then 50 and 50 and 50 = 250. I got to working on my failed accelerator stick after a long time! I redesigned the rear end, tapering it and I took out the rotating large washer and put in a rotating stick-out bracket to replace it and a large red turn handle and I reangled the front end - taking off most of the fine grooves that I had sawed into it. The new rear end assembly was longer, so I sawed off the end to make the stick shorter again. The turn handle works! - I don't need a wrench. (I had to drill out the hole in the handle.) And I put on a sliding "bracket" to keep the front end from sliding up. And it works! And it can double as a club! I then massaged mother's feet, she was feeling bad. And a sharp thing on mother's foot (the right), put a cut on my right thumb!!! This is a first ever! In all my years, this has never happened. Worked 0.0.
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After getting home, I got out my drill and put up 3 screw hooks to hang the electrical cable on from the cage light in the middle room. This was kind of silly now because now there is no cage, I have it in the front now for Alay. But now I don't need to duck under it in the middle room. Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk - drops 50 and 50 and 50 and 50 = 200. / Pains. Worked on the ultimate starship; the piece of wood is getting very small, but it is close now to what I first had in mind: The kite design. Mother and I had a conflict again over a light (what else?). She got very upset. {She has plenty of money, and a light on, costs very little, but she has a weird hang-up about lights being on, like it's a hole in a boat if a light is on.} Worked 0.0.
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Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk - drops 25 then 20 then 25. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk - drops 45 and 45 and 45 = 135. / Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk ------- drops 25 then 25. / I started chopped down the bump in the front yard where the palm tree was and I made a ramp for the third parking spot with a board and some of the dirt. Mother did not speak to me tonight, not one word. She is her 5 year old self again. Worked 4.0.
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Alay seems to be her "normal" self again. So I did not put her in the cage tonight. /// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk -- drops 45 and 45 and 45 = 135. / Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 25 and 25. / Mother is giving me the silent treatment again - for Christmas Eve. I mostly got done taking down the bump in the front yard where the palm tree was. In front of the fireplace with Alay (in the cage), I started work on a much larger "Ultimate Starship" (kite) design. The first one that I made the other day turned out fairly well despite the frustration and difficulty that I had with it but it is very small -- about the size of a thumb. And I had lit the "fire", but it did not start! This is the first time that my "fuse" failed. It took a long time but it did lite. Alay was not a bit afraid of the fire. Worked 3.0.
{After a long time, I was able to start color coding my print in my Record Books: Black ink for regular every day things, blue for special or unusual things, red for anything bad, for all food; green, except purple for chocolate.}
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/// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk - drops 45 and 45 and "40" = "130". / I raked up a huge pile of leaves and had Alay out in the rear yard at the same time. Among other work. Mother spoke to me after being brought home by Carolyn and her friend. Joy and Teresa both gave me a gift. A loaf of bread of Joy's and a very fancy tire gauge from Teresa. {It takes batteries, and I never used it. I guess it was too fancy for me. And I did not like the idea of needing to put batteries in a tire gauge! All I need are things that work! And in my life, not many things did.} I guess at least the women like me. With Alay, I built another fire, but later when I lit it with mother and Alay, my fuse failed for the second time. I cut off the corners of my second ultimate starship (kite) design. My Accelerator Stick does not exactly work. It is revved up a bit too high but then when I sit down, it goes too low. I looked at the situation tonight and saw that it is the seat that is moving. So I am going to need to redesign it again. {What I ate for Christmas Day other than the chocolate; Loaf bread "Oroweat" "Oatnut 3 seed" --- slices 3. Apple fruit sauce. Then later; Can - 15.25 (ounces) of "Fry's" "Yellow Cling Peaches Sliced", Cake - 24.0 of "Walnut Streusel Coffee Bread" -- about one sixth. This is a typical day of eating for me.} Worked 3.5.
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/// Chocolate "Hershey's" milk --- drops 40 and 40 and 40 =120. / Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 20. Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk - drops 20 then 20. BLANK Worked 2.0.
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BLANK /// Loud music playing some time in the morning. Chocolate "Hershey's" milk - drops 40 and 40 and 40 = 120. Boys playing ball again and hitting my trailer with their ball. Mexican kids of course. I yelled at them. Pulling out whiskers again, on both sides and chin. They grew in mostly white. Alay is like sweet waffles! Chocolate "Ghirardelli" milk -- drops 20. BLANK Worked 5.5.
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"Original Double Chocolate Chip Cookie" -------- 3 cookies. / Kevin came in and woke me up (with mother). Alay was laying next to me. He and mother talked to me about getting up and leaving the house. It went on for awhile while I was laying in "bed" (on the floor in the sewing room), when I was stranded at the house not being able to get my car going and because of this, not being able to work either and being very low on money. This was major stress for me. While I laid there I was having a shake attack. This surprised me, but I was in a very bad spot and they were wanting to make my misfortune much worse for me than it was. Then after I had gotten up, I had another long talk with Kevin {my brother}. He was not the slightest bit interested in giving me any help, the only thing he wanted was for me to go home and to have my car taken home. He is a stupid bastard (or something like that) and I told him that. I told him that it was his duty to help me like it is my duty to help Alay. I told him that without me, Alay would have died. I told him, that Alay cannot catch a mouse or a cricket or a cockroach. I told him about Alay, and that she could not survive without help, and like Alay, I could not survive without help. I asked him what it would have been like if he had been born as a "car with 3 wheels". But anything that I said to him made no difference. He kept on telling me that I should solve my own problems and that it was important that a person does not cause someone else to suffer. Kevin is an idiot. He only sees part of the picture. I told him that his logic and his reasoning was flawed. He was causing me to suffer! Also, by not helping someone, by doing nothing, a person IS causing someone to suffer. {This is a typical example of the way MY CRAPPY FAMILY treats me: When I have misfortune they treat me badly and do nothing to help me. It's no wonder that I've never been able achieve a desirable life for myself.} I now have $368 (paid). Later, I gathered up and worked on my car. (When I was talking to Kevin I had told him that the problem with my car was probably 1 little thing.) It started! So I worked on my Accelerator Stick again and hopefully this time got it to work and I also took a look at mother's car. It has some problems. Then in my car, I went to the near by library. But it was far too busy. So I went to a library that I had never been to and checked on the stocks. Then I returned to the house and had a long talk with a "Schwab" woman about money missing from both accounts. Then I loaded up my stuff and went home. "Original Double Chocolate Chip Cookie" -- 2 cookies. Worked 1.0.
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